nothing but pam

2008-03-26T00:45:00.001+08:00

i'm so so busy!!!

sorry...

2008-03-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

its morning shift again!
i love working AM because i can go home early and meet my boy :)
happily went bugis and waited for him at the platform level.
then he asked me to go up and meet him! grrr..

i thought we will be heading home for dinner?
but he said, we are going to catch a movie :D
was quite elated lah! haha!

even thou' its weird to watch a movie with my uniform,
and getting stares at my uniform,
i still enjoyed myself.

watched Step Up 2: The Streets
and what else can i say?
its just GOOD, so watch it!

throughout the whole show,
was waiting for the song "Low" by FLO Rida feat. T.Pain
& i thought the crew will dance to it or something in "the streets"
but they didnt. was a little disappointed
still, its a great show; a must watch
i love the movie,
& its just an understatement.

i was quite surprised to see the movie showing in cinemas today
all along, i thought its only showing on 13 march
got all excited and yeap, i have my movie tickets!
just cant wait to go in and get the movie started.
i think i am so high and too excited for it that i ran to my seats.

Briana Evigan (Andie) has such a hot bods.
was really motivated to work out so to achieve a hot abs like hers.
but let just face the reality, pam will not make it thru la, right?

Step Up 1 and 2 is really a phenomenon!
everyone is waiting for it;
watching it;
listening to the soundtracks;
dancing it;
and re-watching it!

when i knew Step Up 2 is coming,
i get all crazy about it.
and now i have watched it,
i am still crazy about it.
its is seriously good!
dont hesitate,
just watch!

2008-03-11T01:52:00.005+08:00

my last paper : Destination & Attractions Management :))

some of the pics we took after our last paper.

theres more, but i busy n lazy at the moment.

2008-03-10T13:21:00.002+08:00

life is boring and busy.
i am supposed to be carefree and bumming around all day long.
unfortunately, it did not happen this way.
was bed-ridden last wed. (next day of my last paper)
how nice? its a real bad cold.
and the cold was stuck with me till yst.
for so many f.days.
& today, my voice is still not at its peak note.
i want my voice back!

was supposed to like party on wed as a post celebration or smth.
but without any good planning, everything will go to waste.
and i worked and worked since thursday.
finally! tommorrow will be the last day of the 6-consecutives working days
and wed, its my off day! :D
work resume on thursday. DAMN
last day is someday next week.
& soon, i will be starting my training.
i can predict i'll be really busy.

everything is happening too fast.
i cant even catch a glimpse of what is going on in my life.

everyone is asking me if im excited or what
to my surprise, i am not.
well, wouldnt say totally, but just not as excited as i-am-supposed-to-be
its more scare than excited i think.
theres this fear factor that i cant overcome.

and when i think about it,
it gets me sad.
when it starts, i will be really busy.
and i cant see my baby that often anymore.
it just deterred me from going ahead.

there is a path ahead that is ready for me to step on,
but i still feel the emptiness inside me.
and i know its bad to feel this way......

2008-03-05T14:21:00.004+08:00

i am a happy graduate now!
the last paper; D&A is quite good i think.
at least i got something to write :D

but the feeling of completing the paper wasnt as great as i thought.
i thought i would feel free, happy and excited
but... i feel kinda (BLAH!)
i cant accept the fact that i am done with all exams; all projects; three years pf poly life and everything.
hate thinking that i am no longer a student.
i miss filling up my occupation as student.
miss studying, chionging for projects, and mug for my tests & exams.
i really do feel like a geek at times.

is it because i really enjoy studying?
or i cant accept the truth that i am getting old?
i feel really old, like really aged.
DROP THE THOUGHT.
cos well, i am not even 20 right!

to reward myself for all the mugging,
i did that, yeah finally.
and its feels good. even thou' not much difference.
its just so tender and young.
all i want to do is to pamper it.
maybe i can consider giving it a mask treat.

afternoon; quite well spent.
and i think we studied too much! really.
we actually managed to relate IMC (Integrated Marketing Communications) into our conversational topics.
maybe we should consider joining the advertising industry.
well, i think we have quite a potential :D

met a weird guy that freaked both me n jo out.
happy times with the girls.
spread at sushi tei, paragon
and chilling time at gloria jeans.
with lotsa laughters and juicy stuff.
masks-shopping too!
will jo be another mask-fanatic?
hmm, we will see...

dinner with love.
simple yet sweet. (:

**will upload pictures soon (:

2008-03-03T23:48:00.004+08:00

tomorrow is the day!!!
and i will be a happy graduate :))
who is done with her diploma!

maybe its my last last paper,
i am more slack than ever.
maybe its my last paper,
i memorise my notes as if i have no more chance to do it.

hope my last paper would be a success.
and it must be.

i will miss school, definitely.
i miss mcdonald! (cos its f.cheap)

I WILL MISS SCHOOL!!!!!

i want to be a school girl;
like a pretty geek :))

2008-03-02T01:02:00.001+08:00

hoping a change in the template, will inspire me more.
allowing me to pen interesting happenings regularly.

many asked what am i busy with recently,
well, busy "mugging" and slacking.
tuesday will be the LAST exam paper to pass me with my diploma,
but i hope it will not be the last exam paper of my whole entire life.
of cos i want a bachelor degree or maybe a masters, yes?

let's hope theres As this time round,
thou' im not any confident.

spent my whole sunday surfing and watching television.
watched television the WHOLE day, i tell you!
as for my revision, i did start.
i highlighted all the selected slides to study already.
and i shall be hardworking tomorrow.
its my last paper anyway, so i think i should work hard for it.

tuesday will be the end of my poly life,
and i suppose it will be the mark of a new chapter, a new journey.
yes, and it will be.
cos im going somewhere to do something with chew.
chew forced me!!!! she say cannot pang seh her.

2008-03-01T01:41:00.004+08:00

its the first of the month again!
so its "Happy 5 years and 10 months Anniversary" :D

spent the afternoon at sam's granny place,
and accompanied them for praying at their lil' temple.

and off to town!
planned for shopping actually,
but we reached town around evening time alrdy.
not enough time for shopping.
and i didnt get myself anything!
wasnt at the peak mood of shopping
cos im so so hungry and was craving for udon so so badly.
but my boy still not hungry!
so i can only eat pineapple to fill my stomach.
to waste time, and wait for him to get hungry,
we stroll around malls, and mostly looking at his stuff.
im just too hungry to shop.
(talking about udon, im craving for it now)

finally, he is getting hungry.
so i happily rush to Sushi-tei,
and saw the queue! WTF
bo bian, but to put my name at the waiting list.
was really so hungry till i want to give up udon for other food.
but that boy says, since i got craving, must as well wait......
and we wasted 45 mins to eat!!!
for that pathetic 45 mins, we went almost every shops at paragon!

finally finally finally, its our turn.
we ordered quite alot,
and i think i ate like 3/4 of everything.
just cannot describe how hungry i was.
and of cos, i had my Udon!

i love love udon!!!
my udon craving have really frighten people.
during my ipp days,
i always suggest udon for lunch.
and poor yong chuan n alex must eat with me!
then when im out with my boy,
he must see me eat udon every time.

before we ask for bill,
we will usually play the guessing game.
well, we need to guess how much the bill will cost.
and the lose party will bear the forfeit.
boy guessed it to be $71, and i think it will be $75.
and it turned out to be $71.33!
i really dont know why he everytime so accurate.
but still, he lost to me by 33 cents!
by right, he should get me a present, and i will foot the bill.
then again, i think i will give up that idea,
thank him for the meal, and wait for a bigger present this coming may :))

2008-01-02T21:33:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
HAPPY 2008!!!

time is flying i swear.
here, its another year.

new year resolutions!
* family and i stay healthy and happy :)
* darling and his family stay healthy and happy :)
* family and i be blessed with safety (god bless)
* darling and his family be blessed with safety (god bless)
* always pretty, cute, and YOUNG
* complexion never aged!
* slim down to 45kg but with bigger boobs *.*
* able to save up $ and get gucci bag for darling
* start savings and get more money
* Good sales and good luck everyday $$$
* earn more money
* graduate with a GPA of 3.5 and above
* get into university
* pursue my air-stewardess dream
* hair grow longer
* daddy and mummy strike toto and 4D
* beloved by prince sam, family and friends
* be more optimistic
* be more easy-going and fun-loving
* less picky and selective

2007-12-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

do i really look weird with RED lipstick?

he say i look fugly and weird lo!
ANGRY!
how can he like that say right?

2007-12-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

for some god-knows-what reasons,
im feeling really shitty right now.
i need retail therapy,
and i shall spend and shop like no one's business.
or maybe i shld lock myself and isolate myself in my pretty but too-messy room.
how about going ktv myself and sing my lungs out, and no one shall care.
BLAH!
its not pms what!
even thou girl's hormonal changes now and then,
im still not convinced.

i shld stand a mile back,
and take a better look of the world.
how is it like from a different perspective?

now then i realised,
im only rotating around myself.

how would things be,
if some things had never happened?

owells,
im just talking about the impossible....

lost and withered-

2007-12-30T00:15:00.000+08:00

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im tired of living in my self-denial world!
i shall resign from all those "trying-so-hard" words to convince myself,
and make myself feel confident and beautiful.
blah! reality is hurtful; reality is nothing pleasant.

im just a fucking ORDINARY girl,
who has a so ORDINARY face;
who lives in a so ORDINARY life;
and who always daydream that she is living in a fairy tale.

stop dreaming!

cos im just nothing but PAM!
the not-so-pretty girl,
but who always lied to herself saying she is pretty.

its time to look into my mirror...

2007-12-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

im full of envy.

i envy other couples when i see them happily holding hands on streets.
i envy other couples when their boyfriend treat them like PRINCESS.
i envy other couples when their boyfriend wont throw them tantrums and attitude.
i envy other couples when their boyfriend spend precious moments together with girlfriend.
i envy other couples when their boyfriend filled his heart full of his girlfriend and love.
i envy other couples when their boyfriend dare to shout "I LOVE YOU" in orchard road.

why others can be treated like princess and i am not?
not like i ask for Gucci and LV every month what!
not like i demand for dine-in at Fullerton what!

I JUST NEED TO BE PAMPERED & LOVED!
I WANT TO BE TREATED LIKE YOUR PRINCESS!

2007-12-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

christmas wasnt that fantastic this year.
food at NYDC ruined my day.
the crowd at orchard worsened everything.
and stupid boyfriend sucks that day.
lucky i still have my dear family and MPG ladies.

at NYDC. food are so overrrated! boo!

my arms and thighs arent that flattening in reality.

me.phine.jas.clar

we are so disappointed with the food!

hmmm. gucci-faced!

all are MINE!

went shopping with mum, dad n klem.
and i bought this very pretty pair of "everbest" leather shoes.
so loving it!
it makes me look so tai-tai,
and makes me look like one too!
thats the BEST part of it.

mummy bought me this super pretty scarf :)
and its the only christmas present ive received.
which is so so so sadd!
christmas exchange has nothing proud to be mentioned.
some are worth appreciating, while some are flops.
anyhow, its the thought that counts huh!
to alex, i like the leggings, really. but its a bit loose!
to jasline, got nothing to "hiam" la. im using it still.
LOL! thanks anyway.

i realised i only blog when im bored,
or feeling really bad, or feeling really sulky and suck!
right now, im all of the above.

blah!

today, its outing day for me, klem, mum n dad.
both mum n dad took OFF to acc us to SENTOSA!
unfortunately, kleaven has his own programme,
so no fun for him.
we sat cable car from mount faber,
and ours is the GLASS CABIN!
so cool i tell u.
at first, i was pretty freaked out, cos it feel as if im dropping off into the ocean.
but after a while, its okay.
i want to sit again!
the main point for this trip is just to let klem experience the cable car trip.
so we didnt went anywhere else.
everything else is so expensive.
and we are too dressed up for anything fun.
took photos everywhere,
and make ourselves look like tourists.
LOL. we really look like tourists lo!
only tourists dressed up for sentosa outing okay!

the rest of the night is SHIT!
cos boyfriend has no love for me.
hate him.

2007-11-07T01:17:00.000+08:00

yeppie! today is my last day of IPP!
im so happy but yet sad.
Happy because i no need to wake up so early anymore,
Sad because i will miss my workplace and my colleagues.

Bought delifrance muffins for my department,
and its good that they enjoyed eating the super BIG muffin.
just ate my muffin, my colleague brought hor fun for me!
wah! super full i tell you.
and one hour later, my supervisor and other colleagues
brought me and alex for lunch at Harry's.
after lunch, alex gave me doughnuts!
super super full!
but i enjoyed the lunch. its FUN & FUNny!
thank you thank you!

2007-10-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

i dont know how long will this last again.
why must u say that again?
havent i not told u, one day, it will really make an end to this r/s?
havent i not told u, not to say that again?
havent i not told u, not to say it in impulse?

i swear i told u alot of times,
not to say that, again and again.
this better be the very last time.
cos' my heart will not take another blow.

if u really want this r/s,
if u reallt cherish and treasure it,
why must u bring it up again n again?
i dont want to blame on ur horoscope,
even though i know that what every ARIES will do.
i wish u were different.
there might not be many girls or guys who can take that.
guys cant even stand it, and im a girl,
i kept quiet again n again.
and u shld know what im talking abt.

it is ur HABIT,
and please quit it.
this r/s is not a game, neither is it a hotel.
u dont pause the r/s and resume it whenever u like.
u dont check-in and check-out whenever u feel like it.
if u want to last this r/s, then DONT break it!

u said im unreasonable.
and everytime u said that.
but this time, who are u to say that?
u go find 10 guys, and u ask them,
will they say that to their gfs?
and u find 10 girls, and u ask them,
will they get angry if their bfs said that?

and i am very sure,
out of the 10 guys,
8 will not say that.
and out of the 10 girls,
9 will be angry.

u cant blame me for being angry.
really.

im feeling so disappointed.
on one hand, i love u and i still do.
but on the other, i hate u for saying that.
the moment u said that,
i felt a prick in my heart and it hurts.
it still do, and it hurts badly.

u said that we've been together for so long,
so i shld know u better.
and it is because i know u for so long,
it hurts me more to hear u say that.

i nv thought it will come out from u,
but it did.

if im the one saying that,
wont u be angry?
im so sure u will slap me so hard,
and scold me BITCH real loud.

im so sad and feeling so hurt.
no one will understand how i feel.
and neither will u.
if u understand how i feel,
u wont said that im unreasonable.

a r/s stands strong if both parties hold on tight to it.
but in our r/s,
it seems like im holding to it more than u do.
ppl always ask themselves,
whether the person they love worth the love.
but for me, i asked,
do u love me as much as i do?

so what we love each other?
this will nv last if this continues.
this will nv last if u dont admit that u are in wrong.

how long will my fairy tale last?

2007-10-25T09:45:00.000+08:00

was reading Noah's blog
and i came across this entry that he wrote.
the entry was dated "22 Feb",
HAHA! Im so sorry la
im not blogging in my own blog,
and neither am i reading other's ppl blog
until NOW!
okay, i am a failure in blogspot.com la.
just spare me.

anyway, i find the poem that
he attached with his entry was very interesting.
with his permission to quote his poem,
i decided to put it in my blog,
can share with those pathetic few
who actually reads my blog.
if there is really someone,
i would like to thank u for reading.
haha! im so pathetic!

here it goes....

"IF YOU ARE STRAIGHT, THEN ACT LIKE ONE!
This poem is for those who are not gay but actually sissies.

A boy will become a man
It doesn't matter when
When boys behave like a girl
Leaves our minds all in a swirl
It can happen so fast
It may just even last
In the night and in the day
Guys now act so damn gay

In the wonderful fairy tales
True men were brave and strong
In their missions they never failed
And the maidens singed them songs

Some "men" now flinch just at words
They cry at being the joke
But words can't do much fucking hurt
And neither can a little poke
So I hope all men stop being sissies
And don't behave like a missy!!!

In short be like me! LOL =D"

i was enjoying the whole poem
except the very last sentence... -.-
dont u think its really interesting?
i really think Noah should be a poet or smth.
maybe n editor or journalist.

i still remember when we were dong our TEP report,
we will take about 2 days to finish it,
but our incredible NOAH
can finish the report within 2 hours lo!!!!
and still get "A" for it.
im totally impressed with his writing skills and his command in english.
SUPERB!

ahhhhh......

2007-10-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

i cant believe that this is happening to me!
.
.
.
.
.
ive got two pimples popping out soon!
OMG. its 2 at a time okay.
and its my first time having 2 pimples at the same time.
i want to faint!!!
i feel so disfigured and disgusted with it.
hopefully my HAZELINE will help.
it always do.

and my throat are sore!
it feels so swollen
and i cant even swallow my saliva.
I guess i might be falling sick soon.
:((

changed my song,
and hope those who read my blog will like it.
(i dont think theres anyone reading it anyway!)
with a new song,
it might motivate me to change to a new template too!
looking for a super pinky and princessy one.
but not too girly. must have a punch in it.
haha! yes, i am demanding.
but i dont think i have the patience to look for one.
& dont ask me why the song is not repeating.
i also want it to repeat but it just doesnt do tt!
plus, i have no idea how to make it happen.

im so not IT-savvy.

2007-10-23T12:14:00.000+08:00

this place seems so unfamiliar out of a sudden.
what is "blogger"? I start pondering……

and then i remember!
the place where i used to pen my daily happenings.
& so im starting it again!!! =))
hopefully this enthusiasm will last.

i have tonnes of photos in my hard disk and phone,
but im just lazy to spent that few mins to upload them to my lappy,
and then up on my blog.
wells, maybe i shld change my template too.
BUT!!! i love goong!
i want to be the princess who found her prince,
and is married happily ever after.
(a-hem! my darling boy, where are you? are u reading this?)
dont u guys find their love story sweet??
rights. maybe im the only one who is STILL in that "goong" era.
but it used to such a "hot thing" okay.
and now mediacorp are celebrating their 25th anniversary,
arent they?
& all the oldies are showing on screen!
so, ITS OKAY to be at the "goong" era still.
(moreover, its only a few months back?)

anyway, this week is the 9th week of IPP!!! OMG
so exciting. school is reopening soon
& i simply cant wait
call me mad and i dont care.
i just miss school!
i used to look forward to graduation and then working life.
but now i dread working. i want to continue studying
& continue filling up my occupation as STUDENT.

On contrary, i will miss my work place.
although every morning, i have to run for the transport,
i think its a nice place to be attached to.

but but but...
i dont think i will considered this as a possibility for my future.
i used to have this ambition of being an executive women with
lots of subordinates reporting to me.
however, after this attachment, i realised office job is not what i want.
& its weird and scary to realise that i actually prefer my estee job than this!
cos' u cant expect me to be stuck at cosmetic line till im old right?
its not like i got no prospect at all and have to be a beauty advisor for life.
but on another hand, maybe i like being in the service line.

yesterday, i attended this workshop at my workplace
and the trainer was telling us the power of the phase "what if?".
it gets me thinking....
what if..... i am the air stewardess
what if..... i continue studying and get a degree
what if..... i just get any job and settle down for a family in a few yrs time
WHAT IF???
and suddenly, im worried for my future.
what should i do when i graduate from poly??
i want to get a degree for sure,
but my GPA is not high enough to bring me that far.
my dream university is SMU,
but its not easy to get in there i think.

then, i was at the toilet just now,
when i met alex's supervisor.
shes kinda coaching me,
which i find it very helpful.
she is trying to help me see my interest, see my path.
she said alot of things,
and i start to see what module interest me most.
and i come to realise, its PERSONAL SELLING.
it is the module that i dont think much effort and i can do well in.
it is the module which i ALWAYS do my tutorials
(FYI, i did every tutorials for this module okay!)
so she told me, if this is what i am good at,
stick to it, and make it my specialisation.
and i should not change again.
as it will reflect you as a person who u dont know what u want,
and companies will hardly look upon you as a potential employee.

its really encouraging when she supports me to pursue my dream
; being an air-stewardess. (its an every girl's dream)
but i felt that i shld discuss this with my parents and ah sam again.
i consider this as a very good exposure for me.
and i felt that i can really learn alot from it
but but... i have a dream crasher.
remember my fungal infection on my mosquito bite?
im left with a scar!!
it will be such a pity if it affects my interview la!

2007-10-08T20:20:00.000+08:00

okay..
i shouldnt be so mad with that woman.
if not i will have more wrinkles, which is no good.
for a demure and gentle girl like me
shouldnt go "f*** here and f*** there" yeah.
i have good upbringing unlike them
so maybe i should show my empathy and
stop being so mad right.

friends,
pam is a good girl right.
she dont scold vulgarities,
she dont swear and scream on net.
shes such a nice girl :))

2007-10-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

FUCKING IRRITATING!!!!

i fucking hate M.I.C people!!
especially those CHINA AUNTIES!!
was on the bus just now, and its fucking packed.
out of courtesy, i let her and her son board up the bus before me,
and poor me, have to stand on the steps.
then i realised she has alot of space around her,
BUT she fucking refused to move in.
i really dont care so much alrdy, since she has SO much space lo.
i squeeze beside her, and keep looking at the space beside.
she still act ignorant pls! fucking irritating right.
only know how to ask her naughty son to stop fidgeting,
cannot ask that boy to move in meh?
finally, she moves in and stands behind her son.
still dare to act as if no space like that. damn irritating.
then the person behind her went down the bus,
and of cos theres space for me to move in right?
when i moves in, she give me a stare as if theres no space lo.
like what the fuck man this woman.
and she fucking use her butt to push me away okay!!!
im practically lying my front on the fucking old machine alrdy,
and she still pushed me!!
wah i tell you, i super mad alrdy.
and i just politely ask her "hey! why are u pushing me?"
she still have the cheek to say "when did i ever pushed you? you are the one who is pushing me!"
(of cos she speaks her china accent kind of manadarin la! shes from china. duh!)

WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK!!!! her butt so big, even i pushed her,
you think i can win her BUTT???
and in the first place, i dont even want to stand near her,
you think i will want to push her and dirty my body?
so i said: "now u are pushing me. cant u see im so squeezed here? and please! you have so much space over there!"
wah! she win le lo. she say: "cant u see i have a son here?"
use her son for excuse lo!
everyone in the bus knows that her son keep fidgeting!
and that alrdy took up some space.
and now she bloody say she no space and im pushing her hor!
KNNCBB!!!
once MIC is forever MIC lo.
so what come singapore to work and study?
still MIC!

BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

2007-08-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

i just want to be treated like a PRINCESS!!!
is that so difficult?
cant i be ur one n only haughty princess?
if u refuse to treat me like YOUR PRINCESS,
then you are not my prince...

i just want to be pampered..
and showered with LOVE

withered..

2007-08-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

dear, WHERE are you???

i miss you..
u know i love you;
how much i love you.
& i know u do.

waiting for u just drive me crazy...
where are you? =(

I REALLY MISS YOU....

2007-08-19T01:58:00.000+08:00

i want this to be over soon!!!
so looking forward to thursday, my last-paper day!!
cat's msn is now "i want something that i cant have & i want it badly."
and i was thinking about it, like really seriously.
maybe i should think of what i want too..

and here it goes:
- longchamp bag(s); really got to depend on my capital n wants
- that pretty gucci bag
- my dream figure (34, 24, 34)
- my dream weight, 46kg! (at least im quite realistic huh!)
- a pair of RED lingerie? (woa!!! sexy, hot n exotic!)
- super long, straight and silky hair
- more shoes and shoes
- more tops and tops
- more CLOTHES!!!!
- at least one distinction for this sem =D
- more money definitely

hmmm. im not so greedy afterall.
but thats not my birthday wishlist yet!
haha! cos i want them to be accomplished before my birthday.
which tells me that i have one month to work on them
eh. so much of being realistic huh!

talking about impossible,
i wish that my eye lash could grow another centimetre longer.
owells. im not greedy at all
JUST one more centimetre right.
actually i have no idea how long a centimetre is,
as i do not have a ruler ard me
but i guess it shld be enough.

just on random;
im having HR paper this tue
and i have not touch on it yet.
so pray hard
and wish me all the BEST!
thank u very the much

i was slim this morning,
but NOT anymore...

WORST DAY EVER

2007-08-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

i fucking swear its like the WORST day ever.
damn moody this morning, a super bad sign to start a day like this.
had CRM presentation and its still okay.
only until the later part.
got back our ICA3 paper, was quite pleased initially
cos im one of the 19 who passed.
but after thinking abt it, i realised that i nv do very well.
disappointment and depressed until..........
i always have super high expectations for this module,
hoping to get a "distinction" =)
but now, my hopes are gone.
i was so so NEAR to "distinction" u know.
now, the feeling SUCKS!
immediately dropped to pit bottom like tt.
feel like a failure suddenly.

lucky, darling boy purposely took half day to acc me.
i guess this is the only thing that makes my day today.
thank you!

had my first meal in the late afternoon,
hungry like anything.
it just feel as if im disappearing into air in no time.
thats continues my moodiness.

was very deprived from sleep; and still is.
so went to have a quick nap.
but that irritating guy keep irritating me.
which make me ended up having a very sleepless sleep.
when i dont have enough sleep,
i tend to have a very bad mood.
that explains how im feeling right now.

then irritating guy had to leave alrdy,
cos hes going with his cousin.
so it makes me very unahppy.
was throwing my temper the whole night.
im over here feeling so down,
and hes going out.
i felt neglected and was unhappy.

after he left, i locked myself inside my room doing nth.
still feeling very moody and upset.
so i decided to go have some antidote; ICE CREAM.
it is when i find out another horrible thing.
someone ate my icecream, which irritaing-but-my-darling boy bought for me!!!
wah. totally furious.
usually, i wont be upset of cos.
but i dont know why im so flared up this time.
maybe its bcos the ice cream is from him.
so i shld have the full ownership of it.
moreover, i really need it to boost my spirit at this kinda time.

and bcos of this, i just quarrelled with my bros.
like really quarrel. which made me even more upset.
i nv thought things would turn out this way.
and some of his words are really hurting,
which i dont know how am i suppose to feel better like tt.
it've been very very long since we really quarrelled,
which im really glad abt it.
now? i dont know what to do now.
on one hand, i think that i did nothing wrong for "confronting" them.
on the other hand, i think i am.
sometimes, i really feel like a lousy sister.
i dont know what to do to make the bonding better.
its like so near, but yet so far.
they are just beside me, but i feel difficult to communicate to them.
its not like i dont love him, i DO.
even though i usually shout at them n all,
i always love them as my brother.
i scold them cos i want them to change for the better.
but i think im too harsh sometimes.

i just cant stop crying.
i feel useless of all sudden.
all i want is a happy ever life.

my sweetest story

2007-07-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

2007-07-08T12:00:00.000+08:00

i dont know who to blame for all my moodiness.
myself? my pessimisim? or my pms?
maybe i shld just blame it on pms.
im getting really moody nowadays;
kept thinking about alot alot of things..

sometimes it really bothers me when i see married couples around.
cos sometimes, i really wish i have a family of my own.
but looking at my age. im too young.
what bout my career? my future?
i certainly cant spoilt it for a moment of ....?
i did asked sam about future.
but he dont seem as interested as me, which led me very disappinted n upset.
it just come to my mind that, "is he the one"
"is he the one im going to marry?" "am i the one he wanted?"
maybe im too pessimistic and possibly thinking too much.
i know i shldnt be thinking to that extend, but i just help it.
im getting far too excited to experience the future.
kept telling myself, I SHOULD CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES.
my future, my career.
but... im still upset.
everytime when i look at him, i really dont want to let him go.
but looking at the obstacles ahead,
maybe letting him go will be a better choice for him? n maybe me?

maybe im just thinking too much.......

2007-06-20T01:46:00.000+08:00

was browsing thru friendster just now,
and something just disgusted me.

boasting how much ur bf loves you?
cos he bought u a dress, a cardigan and 2 bag??
hmmm, what can i say?
he love you, and u love his $$?
say until like ur bf is the best,
and u are super lucky to be able to have him?
goodness.
me n my darling so loving,
also wont so BHB go ard and hao lian la.
if buy u all these means love you,
then shld i say u are too naive or b***0??
if under ur theory, buying stuff is love,
then when sam bought me diamond necklace,
means he cant live without me ah?

i hate it when ppl compare my darling boy and him.
so what he is richer?
so what if all his gfs are prettier??
i want to let everyone know that Mr. Samuel Jasman is as capable.
He is as handsome!!
and I can be as pretty as those girls..
im pissed.

BLAH!!!!

2007-06-19T02:08:00.000+08:00

SORRY for not updating.
but im simply TOO lazy to do so.
i suppose i will start only when ive changed my blogskin,
and maybe a new blog space.
well, ive reached a limit where theres no more excitement in typing down all my happenings in life.
(although ive plenty to talk about)
yeah, pretty ironic.

after this long break of not updating, i have no idea where to start this post.
maybe.... about the movies ive watched since last wk?
haha! yeah. good idea to at least make this post lengthy, i suppose.

u know what? before my term break, i have not watched movie for a very long time.
and this time round, i already watched 3 movies within a week!
woa! quite impressed with myself.
i think im just deprived of watching movies, that why im so "on" for movies now. LOL
had "Ocean's Thirteen", "Shrek 3" and "Fanastic Four with the Rise of the Silver Surfer"
i tell you, NO regrets watching these three movies.

Although, i have not watched Ocean's 11 & 12,
but i love Ocean's 13
(Brad pitt is HOT HOT HOT)
yeah, poor sam darling have to explain to me throughout the whole movie. cos some parts are related, and im lost.

I have not watched Shrek 1 & 2,
but i enjoyed Shrek 3
(so sweet and fairytale like)
haha. i didnt know Snow White can be so bimbotic?

I have not watched the first Fanastic Four...
but i enjoyed this second one
(so exciting pls!!! i like all the "phew" here and "phew" there. and my heart "phew" together when they "phew" around) wahahaha...
very nice!!!
i wish i have superpowers too!
i wish i can "TELEPORT"!!!
haha =D

i wanna watch:
- Nancy Drew
- Transformers

only 2??
can someone tell me more movie names?
so my list can be longer?
two is pathetic...
(even though i will only watch 2 out of 10 listed)

2007-04-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

FUCK!!!
why am i expecting you to call??
i mean, why am i still waiting???
u are not worth for me to do this for you
when u actually dont cherish me n the relationship.
damn it damn it!!!!
if you are fucking serious about anything,
it wont take u a million years to think!!
cant u just end all these wishy-washy things alrdy??
i mean if u really want me,
why must u take so long to know the answer?
I am REALLY doubting whatever u say!

2007-04-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

schedule is so packed with work, almost everyday.
finally, i get my OFF day tomorrow.
then after this lil' saturday, I will be back to work for another consecutive 6 days.
so i want to make full use of my only off day.
if only i get my pay tmr, then i off to shopping spree!!!!
i'm so dying to shop shop shop!
so many items in my shopping list,
and its always getting longer than ever.
I want my longchamp bag!!!
and wheres my ralph lauren tote??

2007-04-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

U said u do love me,
do u really mean it?

U said u want me,
do u really mean it?

U gave me lots of promises,
but do u really mean it?

after these few days,
i get no answer from you.

does it mean that its all over?

all i know is that,
i dont need someone who dont really love me;
i dont need someone who dont know how to cherish me.

2007-04-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

i know i cant call u my baby boy again-
i know i shouldnt treat u as my darling again-
but i really want to dote on you.
and i really want to be loved by you.
i need someone to hold on to,
to depend on, and a shoulder to cry on.
i want to fall in love again.
i want to feel over the heels again.

i really want to.....

2007-04-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

My Beloved April 1st darling

i really want to shout out "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to you.
i regret for not giving u the best birthday,
i regret for not giving you any fantastic present.
but i promise you, after the chalet,
i bring you out k!! =)
then i will cook more delicious food for you.
its definitely a promise i wont backed out.

its my xiao zhu's birthday today.
and all i did was to cook a sumptuous breakfast for him.
theres a beef patty, chicken breast, mashed potatoes,
sweet corn, chicken salad, sweet corn soup and yoghurt for dessert.
*satisfied grin* do i sound like a 100% good wife who cooks??
i'm not sure what else i'm capable of,
but one thing for sure.
i know i can cook. HAHA
klement(my youngest bro) even asked me to open a western food stall okay!!!
hope my baby boy loves my cooking.
besides breakfast, i also gave him another surprise.

his mum is in Singapore and so in the end, we didn't went out at all.
initially, his mum said she wanted to go shopping,
and i intended to tag along.
i will be glad enough as long as i am with him.
but....... his mum ended up doing housework.
so both of us were sleeping at our respective homes.
on the negative side, i cant go out with him.
but on the positive side, "my auntie" visit me today,
so i can at least lie on my bed without going anywhere.

While resting at home,
i went you-tube and dig out all the NANA anime and the movie.
the series are all the mess,
so i have to really search for the esp i want.
spend the WHOLE afternoon watching.
and its not yet done.
i'm still loading some esps. LOL.
i swear its super addictive.
im totally addicted to NANA okay.
the comics, the anime and the movie!!!!
shit. it felt as though im one of them alrdy.

EMRS & TEP
TEP have ended, so is EMRS.
i really miss the bunch of lovely people i met.
the thought of leaving them really make me tear.
not forgetting my BDs.
i really miss all of you.
cant wait to join u guys in the upcoming chalet.

STUPID INFECTION
my calve area has a very infected patch.
its actually from a small tiny tiny bite.
and now it became a very big patch of fungal infection.
the doctor said its because i scratched it,
and it infected the area.
damned!! i tell u, its really disgusting.
the whole patching has this yellowish gluey fluid flowing out.
its ITCHY!!! very itchy.
and sometimes it will hurt when i walk.
theres this muscle pull around the area when i walk.
i just wish it will heal soon!!!!
thank you.

2007-04-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO ZHU!!!!!

Happy 20th =)

digging out all memories

2007-03-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

I have so much to talk abt but i really dont know where to start from.
maybe i should just talk abt my recent life.
watched dreamgirls with my "xiao zhu" on tuesday.
an advice to those who intend to watch:
watch it if only you enjoy watching n listening to people sing.
yeah! but i enjoy my show =)

had my STRAWBERRY ICE-CREAM after movie!!!
*grins* haha! so contented as i was craving for very long.

yippee yippee yippee~

past few days, we spent our days telemarketing.
for suppliers and also looking for potential locations for external roadshows.
telemarketing can be quite fun, but yet tiring n boring.
luckily we have a good news today, "external RS postponed"!!
=D but we have a new project on hand.
i dont mind actually. cos the new roject sounds more fun to me :)))

jean n me was very excited doing the cosmetics sourcing.
cos both of us belong to the same industry.
yeap. =) cant wait to do more sourcing.

shit!!! i think all of us are so addicted to "ban luck" alrdy.
we played almost everyday pls.
i won $1.50 today!!haha.
the banker had a big blow.
cos all players(me, jean n qin) won consecutively.
firstly, all of us 21 points.
next round, qin "ban ban"
then, i "ban luck".
LOL. we almost laugh our heads out pls.

oh ya.
QIN finally won some money.
she lost $8 in two days alrdy leh!!
but today she won $4.50.
time to win back alrdy!!!

Cheers to all ACEs!!!

hahahahahaha..........

2007-02-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

shit! i am so overspending!!!!!
in total, i bought a pair of levi's jeans,
a new bag, a black lil' cute pouch and 2 new tops la.
and i might be going town with girlfriends next week for more shopping.
meeting my estee girls this sat for training,
and who knows, we might ended up shopping and eating!!
goodness.

poor mummy wanted to watch a movie so much yst.
we accompanied her to walk from lido to cine
just to queue for movie tickets.
dont ask me why i nv book online.
cause' im telling you now.
"NO TIME!"
unfortunately, all timings are either FULL or too late.
so yeah. didnt manage to watch any movies.
but mummy have a date with daddy tmr,
just to watch movie. HAHA
its good la. i also want them to go dating.
but klement wong is playing lightbulb again.

went Hong Kong Cafe for dinner yst.
wasnt that fantastic what!
why are there so many people queueing up??
maybe its just my stomach la.
have no appetite to eat at all.
so food taste like shit to me the whole day.
my stomach, gastric; the whole digestive system la,
have been giving me alot of problems recently.
every now and then, got gastric pain.
then no appetite, cannot disgest properly,
feel like puking and frequent dizziness.
i got this feeling that its gastric flu leh!
hate gastric flu!!!
mummy says so too.
damn la!

so what im so sick and feeble over here?
would someone care?
he must be happily laughing at my worst state.
i am here feeding on medication
and he is over there eating his japanese food!

2007-02-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

from the great demand by DENYSE WU,
i shall now blog.

keep asking me to update but dont want help me =(
bleah!

went last minute shopping with parents on friday
and i bought a pair of ITTI & OTTO's heels!!!!
haha! love it so much.
and its like my first pair of black heels.
freaking cheap la.
super worth it!

then we went tonkichi for dinner!
(the japanese restaurant at isetan orchard)
omg. loves the food there.
one of my favourite restaurants.
yes. i simply adores japanese cuisine =D

Yeah. its chinese new year now;
which also refer as the collecting 'hong baos' season. HAHA
besides, i dont really fancy family talk
when they ask abt my studies and all.
its all boring la.
haha! but i like it when my family comes together.
the feeling is so homely,
i like =)

oh. mum's cooking today n yst was nice la.
what can i say besides YUMMY?
haha. have more than one serving.
shit! cannot let gabby and that irritating ian know.
cause' stupid gabby, ian and soon poh
keep saying i eat too much.
they even gave me a nick name, "food queen"
bastard!!! i just snack alot okay!
it doesnt mean i eat alot la!!!
damn irritating.

then some irritating shit keep saying im a ah lian.
f* off pls! just that i came from a neighbourhood sch,
then i "ah lian" meh???
people who likes flowers then is gardener ah?
irritating shit!!!

i really feel like shit when i see people happily in love
and im not.
it just sucks!

2007-02-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

i realised something,
he is fucking avoiding me.

K*** ME PLS!

life is so meaningless with all these rubbish.

2007-02-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

ahhhh... i cant take it any more.
i really want to break down and cry.
have been keeping it inside myself for very long,
but i told myself, i must be strong.
i cant depend too much on him anymore.
yeah. its so must easier to say in words,
while actions are far from that.

it has only been a few days,
but it really feel like a million years to me.
have been trying to use my time fully
but still, it seems so colourless.
dee once told me,
"life is like cycle,
when it goes down,
it will come up."
i really hope everything would end soon.

no matter what,
i still have to face it.
its really time to have a break,
and give our relationship a test.
but why now??? WHY??
its my dear valentines' day pls.
although i have been complaining that
celebrating V'day is too commercialised,
i still wish to celebrate that important day la.
but i have got no valentine!!!!!
no one want me....
no one want to date me....
even there is,
the one i wish to date doesnt want to date me.
theres nothing worser than that.

OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i forgot to blog abt smth!
how can?
he bought me a GUCCI handphone strap la!!!
oh my god! i was so surprised by it.
i really didnt expect him to get me anything.
and ya. somemore i didnt expect anything from GUCCI.
and he really bought it for me.
he bought it straight after he know that i changed my phone can!
and its hot pink in colour.
its really pretty!!!!
he did such sweet things when we are not together.
i dont know want to laugh or cry.
my only darling, i really love it very much! REALLY!

the day when he gave it to me was the recent sat.
and i am so unwilling to leave him.
cos i know after that day,
i wont get to see him so close in person again.
thinking of it already makes me wanna cry.
i very much dont want to go work after i met him,
but no matter what, i have to.
was super late and i dont really care.
whats more important?

have not seen myself happy since then.
i really want myself laugh again,
smile again and happy again.
and only god knows
who will make my happy and blissed.

if only u would ask me out on that day,
if only u agree to be my valentine............

2007-02-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

life never get any better for me.
after that great internal bleeding,
im down with a bad cold.
was terribly sneezing all the way through work just now.
its really terrible to keep sneezing when u are suppose to keep talking.
dont feel like working tmr, but no choice,
they do not have enough manpower tmr.
so i guess, i have to really rest well and head to work tmr as scheduled.

daddy bought me a new phone--MOTORIZR (z3) !!!
sad thing is that, its NOT pink!!!
sad pls! i wanted, i longed for a pink phone
but the sad truth is that, pink phone's functions are usually for basic users.
not saying that im an advanced user or something,
but i have higher expectations la!
pink phone's camera are usually not as clear.
so yeah. drop that idea of mine.
ya anyway, my dad bought it without informing me la,
so owells, kinda satisfied still.
whats more to bargain?
by another look, it look quite sophisticated la.
haha! more solid than my current phone actually.

today's roadshow was not bad i think.
sales is better than yesterday!
and we hit out target unexpectedly.
actually intended to buy the rose tea cookies and a nylon clutch.
but i realised i have been spending too much money recently.
my idol (wan yi) ask me dont waste $$ on the clutch
as i told her i dont know if i will use it after buying.
but its really cheap la! only $3!!!!
still, she told me to save the $3, and use it to buy something i like better.
haha! so, i listen to my pretty wan yi's advice
and i really did not buy in the end.
yeah. despite everyone ask me to just get it.
then, mummy told me that the cookies are too expensive,
but i really think its nice.
the cookies really taste as if im eating some rose petals!!!
haha. how organic right?
i feel love and kinda romantic eating the cookies.
maybe because im quite deprived from love,
thats why i like eating that cookies.
bought quite a few little gifts for him,
but i think its too late to pass to him.
if only that message was not sent.....

haiz... things are not getting better.
i realised that im not as important as i thought i am to him.
its really disappointing la.
but theres nothing i can do.

i really appreciate what dee has done for me. really.
i was so touched after reading her blog entry.
" girl .. everything will be ok . things will be back to normal
it maybe hard for a week or so.. but i'm here for u ok?
always remb that life's like a cycle ..
whenever it goes down , it'll come up (:
and it's up to u to make life worth while for u ok?you don't have to thank me .
cos this is wad friends are for .
i wanna see u smile like u always do .
i wanna see u happy like how u bought a new top
i wanna see u hyper like how u drink your favourite bubble tea ..
i hope that u'll be back to normal soon
cos it's really hard breaking to see u like this .i love you ..
please smile" (extracted from dee's blog.)

anyway, back to roadshow.
today is my first time breaking a fortune cookie
wasnt very anticipate about doing that actually.
but after reading my first fortune,
haha! i start to like breaking them.
sherm said its rude to eat a fortune cookie,
so after breaking it, i threw it away.
hoping it will come true after doing that.
my fortune reading:
"A surprise will strengthen your feelings towards each other" =D
so happy pls. hope it really come true.
for one moment, i thought my fortune reading was lost.
scare me. luckily i managed to find it in the end.

oh ya. and i forget to say that
we had this dedication board placed near our roadshow,
for people to post up their dedications to whoever.
after the event today, i decided to keep those dedications for me.
and i realised that i have really alot!!!!
its nice to know that the people around me love me so much.
love you guys too!!!!

then i received two roses today!!!
hehe. dont tell u who give me.
but really happy la.
ameline soh asked me to take photo with my flowers
and posed behind my booth. LOL
damn funny!

2007-02-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

everything is over; finished.
theres no doubt to his words as he really spoke that with a very calm tone.
i guess its also the end of my life; all my happiness.
at the very moment, i really thought of doing so.
really just end my life, just like that.
but after second thoughts, i realised, its not worth it to just end my future for him.
yeah. even though i really love him that much.
so, at least im still sensible to actually think of that.

i dont know if i can do this,
but voices around me said i could.
just endure a few days of crying and weeping,
everything will be alright for me (hopefully).
maybe, its just a time-out for me
cause' i really need one after so many heartbreaks.

my heart really breaks to a zillion pieces.
i love him more than anyone knows it,
and ppl especially him, does not have any clue on that.
he thinks all the "i love you" i said is crap.
yeah. whatever. no point explaining so much.
as long as i know i did put in my best,
and i love him as much as i can.

hes a nice guy, really.
but ironically, he can be quite a jerk at times.
he breaks my heart like no one's business,
(which kinda make sense actually.)
and doesnt care how pain im feeling inside.
on the other hand, i swear he can be a super nice boyfriend.
his plus points is only known to me,
and im proud of it.
even though he now throw me aside again,
i still love him as much.
perhaps i should give up, like most of you will say.
but whether i can do it or not,
i really dont know.
we will see how things goes.

in these 4 years plus, i never regret loving him;
never regret spending such a long period on this only one guy i really loved.
im happy to have him,
im elated that he once love me.
if only everything could end till eternity.....
we both hope so,
but again, hopes are crashed.

if one day, im allowed to make a wish,
it will definitely be:
"i want to be with him forever, and really happily ever after"

2007-02-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

oh no! im really suffering from sleeping disorder, really
school starts at 8.30 everyday now
and it really kills me!!
but still, im kinda proud of myself.
cos i seldom take cabs nowadays,
and wasnt as late as usual.
yeah. good enough to be proud. *grins*

we are having our roadshow tmr
and everyone are so stressed out.
there is not much time left alrdy!!!!
at this point of time,
i should be busy too
but i really dont know why i got nth to do.
feeling so bad now,
everyone is so busy and im here blogging???

my supplier back out like last min la!!!
idiot! i still put in all my hopes on that supplier.
i used to be very excited in bringing in their products,
but not anymore.
they gave me too much problem. too much!!
now, im posted to be in-charge of this other supplier
which most paperwork are already done before i knew it.
anyhow, im prepared to do OT today.
(OT on what, i also have no idea)
even if im prepared, i dont wish to do so....
yes. its contradicting but yeah.

i wanna meet my fei fei! "fei fei........"
i miss him la. havent been meeting him for days.
i guess he misses me as much as i do.
but yeah, bad times are gonna be over soon.
at least i know it will be be over soon.

2007-01-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

okay, i just reached home and im quite irritated.
irritated by singaporean guys, mostly those uncles.
to me, 30 and above are considered uncle.
i realised that the majority are not gentlemen, and are quite uncivilised.
luckily, i'm not dating a singaporean;
and my brothers, dad and friends belong to the minority.
so i consider myself as lucky.
a gentleman is not defined as a guy who opens door for ladies only.
it takes more than that to be a gentleman.
i dont understand why some guys can actually fight seats with ladies,
squeeze the way through without saying "excuse me" and
bumbing into you without apologising.
need i say more??? its so irritating!!!!

a guy shouldnt do that!!!
but it doesnt mean that ladies are forgiven if they do so.
some aunties also very "buay tahan" one.
everytime so "kan chiong" rush in and out of the trains/buses
as if they will win $1000 after that. -.-
it is why i like to carry BIG bags.
whenever when these people pushes me,
i can use my bag to push them too! *evil laughs*
haha. okay. i know its childish.
but i dont care, i like to let them feel how irritating it is.

ahhh... can someone just chauffeur me around???
i really hate taking public transport.
darling boy... please convert ur lincense soon k!!!

2007-01-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

haha! this is only my second post for 2007.
just look at how i never update my blog.
be prepared. this is gonna be a long entry.

anyway, i was browsing through my photo book
and realised that i didnt blog about the s'pore garden festival!
haha! it actually takes place in 2006.
hmmm ya. its LAST year.
my and boy brought klement wrong to suntec convention hall
for the first indoor garden exhibition
haha! actually its me who wants to go
and so i made up an excuse to bring my bro go instead.
hmmm.. not as amazing as expected.
but still, its quite an eye-opener.
at least for my brother.
sam was very bored by all the flowers, as i can see.
and b'cos he didnt bring his camera,
which i rant at him the whole night.
so hes kinda irritated! haha
no camera means i have to take photos with my phone!

cant take much photos cos of my small memory space!
all thanks to my honey bum.

after that, we went to suntec's koi garden.
and obviosuly, we look at kois.
nothing amazing except for this...

i dont know if they are black kois
or the so called "da bian" fishes.
these disguesting looking fishes crowd at one corner
to fight for their fish food.
the most disgusting part is when they open up their mouths!
its really scary la. omg.
all the mouths open up at the surface of the water,
and it look as if they are going to eat us up.
haha! okay. im thinking too much.
but its really grosssssss!!!!

we also went to this pet shop nearby.
i never used to like rabbits
but after that visit,
im so in love with them.
finally, i realised how cute rabbits and bunnies are.
i dont understand why are there ppl eating them.
heartless creatures.
these people should get their karma!

next, my bro's birthday.
haha! which was also very long ago.
we went swensens for dinner :)
haha. i spent a bomb on his dinner la.
as long as klement wong is happy,
everything is worth it.

2007-01-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2007!!!
owells. another new year.
it totally means, im getting older.
i dont understand why is time passing so fast?
its really getting on my nerve when i see how fast it flies.

didnt really count down.
just spent the eve watching tv and then go to bed.
was working on that day,
met my parents and bro after that.
as usual, have some shopping
was craving for some desserts
so dad drove us around just to look for my desserts.
=) so happy la!
in the end, we ended up at west coast eating desserts
i told them, its my last wish of 2006,
so no matter what, i want to accomplish it.
so yeah. i had my desserts and im happy :)

the only regret is not having my boy with me.
he went to spent his eve with his family members too.
happily eating supper at his cousin's place.
he must be having a good time la.

although hes not with me,
he did made me smile when the clock stuck 2007!!!
i received his message at 12.00am SHARP!
haha! was quite happy actually.
he is so excited when he knows that the message was sent at 12 sharp too.
yeah. now u know how i spent my count down:
waiting for his message. LOL.

first day of 2007,
spent my day working.
and it wasnt a very good start.
i was late for work on the first day of 2007. omg!
and was super late that day.
then, was kinda told off by my counter manager.
yeah. whats new? punctuality!
hmmm. i tried to be punctual but but...
its just my old bad habit.
leopard cant change its spots.
and i think i cant change mine.
maybe i should really try changing.
okay okay. i know i should!!!!!!
so its going to be the top of my new yr's resolution list.

new year resolutions for work:
(1) be punctual!!!!
(2) late minutes for work is ZERO!
(3) hit every month's target! ($$$)

met my boy after work yesterday;
the first day of 2007!!!
its also our 4th year and 8th month anniversary. =)
finally i get to see him.
i think he should really cut his hair!
but he is always so lazy just to trim his hair!
it gets so irritating to nag at him all the times,
asking him to trim his hair.

this is taken quite a time back,
after he trimmed his hair.
see! its so good-looking and neat.
*so handsome*
at least should style and make it look neater right,
but he refuse. grrr...
anyhow, i still love him la.
it was just some ranting, thats all.

walked all the way from paragon to pinic court.
cos my boy want to eat pastamania
then after that can go far east for shopping.
unfortunately, pinic court was closed for some renovation thingy.
i should say the whole scotts orchard is closed.
so left with not much choices,
we went over to isetan to eat mos.
had our favourite ice milk tea :)))
by the time we finished eating,
all the shops were closed alrdy.
so we went back to JP.
wanted to watch a movie at JP,
but all the shows are too late.
so sad. no where to go. =(
my boy is still craving for more milk tea
and he wants his inchigo bliss. i want them too!!
but mos is closed as well. sian!!!
bo bian, went mac instead.
the whole mcdonald is so stuffy,
so i just get the choco sundae
and we sat outside mos to eat it.
slowly enjoy every mouhtful of the ice cream.
after ice cream, we went 7-11 for slurpee.
LOL. we went our night eating and eating la.

today is the last day of my long long weekend.
dont want go school tmr!!! dont want dont want.
anyway, i cooked for my family and my boy today.
both lunch and dinner.
some veg, meat, omelet and potatoes.
they all said it nice okay!!!
one thing for sure,
PAM CAN COOK WELL!!!
after dinner, i went down to the provision shop to get some snacks.
and its really fattening to eat so much.
i bought icecream for my bro,
one packet of calbee hot and spicy
and a packet of calbee prawn crackers.
and both of us finished everything la!!!
sam did ate ABIT, a few mouthfuls and thats all.
it so sinful, i know.

so another new year resolution:
SLIM DOWN
and cut down my intake of junk food!
it is a very very very important one.
i have a list longer than santa regarding my resolution.
HAHA!

2006-12-27T18:14:00.000+08:00

i shld apologise for not updating this few days.
have not been feeling well.
down with a gastric flu!!!
and its killing me, really.
the flu hits me on chrsitmas day la!
and its killing me until today.

my boy actually planned the day nicely for us,
but who knows i will be sick on that day.
dont want to be a wet blanket,
and i really want to carry on with his plan.
but, he insist that i should rest well at home.
so, my boy came over my hse to acc me the whole day.
poor him. i cant acc him as i was sleeping the whole day.
all he do is watch tv and wait for me to wake up.
i really appreciate his pressence when im so sick.
unfortunately, i cant show it to him.
too sick to even smile.

lucky we didnt went out.
i was lying like a corpse that day.
in total, i actually voimited about 7 times.
i threw out everything that i swallowed.
its really terrible.

still, im glad he love my pressie :)
and i love his too!!!

back to my stupid flu.
the gastric flu gives me breathing difficulties yesterday.
i cant even breathe!
the heart is beating so fast,
and it feels as if something is choking on me.
struggling since 3am to 9am.
these few hours are really hell to me.
i almost thought i was going to die.

my dad quickly sent me to our family doctor.
lucky its not asthma or some heart diseases.
she said that its due to the the air pressure
that is caused by the gastric flu.
the air/gas is putting pressure on my heart
and it is why i cant breathe.
thank god!

for these few days,
i can only eat plain porridge with a lil' salt. -.-
nothing oily, no milk and avoid meat.
was given two days MC for me to rest.
but seriously, i think two days are not enough.
today is already the 2nd day of my MC,
and im still not feeling well.
how to go back sch tmr?
im so hungry
but i have got no appetite at all.
everything makes me want to puke.
i think i should be given glucose instead.

my boy is so busy with his projects.
not enough time to acc me this two days.
i know i should be a good girl
and shouldnt be so unreasonable,
but i really want him by my side....

2006-12-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

i miss him... i miss him...
today is only the second day.
hopefully he is back tmr.

oh ya. today, the raining is terrible i tell u.
everywhere was flooded.
there practically no land for me to step on.
all i see is water and water.
its so scary that its freaking me out.
even my school was flooded. madness.
it've been very long since my shoes are hot pink, really.
my shoes were so drenched that its hot pink in colour.
left with no choice, had to call my mum
and ask her to bring me a pair of clean dry shoes.
at least i can feel comfortable for work later.

after class, jean sent us (me, lingta, sherm and jun wen) to VIVO.
woa! comfortable ride.
jean can really ride. so envy!!!!
pretty girl who drives are so sexy. haha. i think.
but jean herself is already sexy. =D
before going vivo, we went to jean's hse first.
then, sherm's.
im so embarassed to say this. but im scared of jean's dog.
her dog very hyper la! freaks me out.
when i see her(apple) running towards me,
i keep screaming for sherm and jean.
haha. but everything is so funny.
my heart almost dropped out, like seriously pls.
even when im in the car, im still trumatised by it.
haha. its abit exagerrated la. but its true.

sherm's mum is so nice.
she treat us eat this chocolate that is bought from europe.
its so heavenly. how i wish i have a second one.
but its not very nice to finish all their chocolates. haha

so honored to have 4 ppl sending me to work.
so nice of them :)

omg!!! something super ungalm happened today.
im caught red-handed at superdog.
i think i saw his cousin with his friend and gf.
omg! why must i be seen in superdog???
why dont i see familiar faces when im at estee? but at superdog?
its like super irritating and embarassing pls.
i cant confirm its his cousin,
cos' i totally cannot recognise him!!!!
im wondering is it that he grew fatter or something.
cos i really cannot recognise him la.
i think its him cos he knows my name!!!!!!!!
i think??? if i didnt heard wrongly,
i heard him saying my name to his friend
goodness la. super unglam like anything pls.
save me.... help me....

***for ur information,
im working superdog cos im a friend of the directors of superdog.
just helping out during my free time
and also to earn EXTRA $$$.
the director is also my boss for my previous job.
and thats how i get to know them.****

2006-12-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

when i wake up today,
i really hope to see his messages.
but i didnt receive any...
i told myself, maybe he would write a letter for me
and post it in my letter box
since hes passing something to me.
so, i rushed down to my letterbox,
and i really digged for my letter.
i only found the breaktalk voucher that hes passing to me.
i feels super depressed and demoralised.
so empty hearted.
its feel as if, im living for nothing.
its really bad.
i dont feel like going school and for work.
throughout the whole day,
i have been checking on the phone for zillion times.
and everytime, i dont see any messages.
on the train to work and school, i cant stop myself from crying.
it looks silly i know. but i just cant help it.
my heart is crying profusely.
i miss him. i want him.
i regret for letting him go.
every minute seems like one year to me.
i see no colours without him.

like finally, my phone rings.
he finally messaged me.
it may not be long and mushy,
but its sweet enough to make me smile.
i really wonder hows he doing there.
hope his boss really take good care of him there.

2006-12-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

my life is ending soon.
my boy is leaving within a few hours time.
i know he will be leaving for KL a week ago,
but still, im not prepared to have him leaving me.
gonna live without him for 3 days sounds like hell to me.
how am i going to survive it through?
when i asked him what he is leaving just now, he said five.
and i dont know why i assumed its 5 pm.
while we were on the way home,
im still happily planning on how are we going to spent the morning before he leaves.
alrights. im quite dumb, i know!
when im telling him i want eat breakfast with him in the morning,
he looked kinda shocked and surprised with my words
and this is when i know something is not right somewhere.
he then told me its 5 AM not 5 PM.
i stunned on the spot. and cried.
yes. i cried in the interchange.
and i know its unglam. but i really dont care already.
i just dont want him to leave me.
im so so not prepared to accept the fact
that he is leaving me within a few more hours.
i want him to stay, i really want him to.
its like one plus now, and i cant sleep.
all i think is him and him. only him.
i just cant stop crying.
i will miss him.
and im already missing him!
i really miss him.

2006-12-15T13:56:00.000+08:00

the first stopover of TEP have already ended,
same goes to my two weeks in PF!
im now having classical for my second stopover
and its boring.
for this first week, i only have to go school for three days.
and in total, i only went for about 4 hours!!! haha
its because.....
on the first day, lesson ends after one hour.
the 2nd day, im late for one hour
and the lesson ends 40 mins after i reached.
on the last day, im late for one hour too!
but the lesson ends later this time round, about 2 hrs after i reached.
seriously, i dont know why i am supposed to go school.
its just a waste of time, really.
ask me what i have learnt,
i would only stare at you. HAHA!

classical really make time pass very fast!!!
its already the end of one week. omg
although i have only left msc for one week,
i missing my BD people like crazy.
i miss the times we went for all our self-declared breaks.
our breakfast, lunch, teabreaks and more teabreaks.
our HDB flat, our storeroom, and everything.
our *dud dud dud dud dud* game and all.....
i miss you guys!
haha! but at least we have a really enjoyable time on the last day!
we really went bonkers on that day pls.
haha! but its all fun.

our gift exchange!!!

i cant bear to leave them... =(

kang jun's armpits are killing me....
i wonder how the rest can still look so happy. ???

say cheese!

Miss all of you!!!!

2006-12-03T01:17:00.000+08:00

im so stress now!!!
i have two reports to be handed in on monday
and i have so not complete it.
wanted to do today,
but i pratically wasted the whole day sleeping.
too tired, cant blame.
then when i start reading the guidelines,
i realise i dont understand a thing!!!
worst still, im working tmr.
that means no time to do tmr!
how how how?
the only solution is to stay up tmr night,
and complete it.
then, go sch straight.
sounds pathetic right.
owells. thats my situation now.
hate this man!!!
why must i be in PF???
if im now at BD right,
i would have complete the report long ago!

where are you?

are u missing me???

alrights. im missing you...

2006-11-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

i really need to see a doctor!
my inner organs are really in pain since yesterday.
its really killing me.
save me!

2006-11-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

i hate this!
why cant we just go back to BD?
why must we stay at outlets until the last last day?
f*** big time la.
idiot man!
those people who decide on this should just go and (*beep*).
hate this!
at first say that we can go back early as long as we learn fast.
now, we cant go back? wth!

anyway, i so shouldnt have taken flexi today!
but if i dont take today, i will also waste it tmr.
wasted!!!! this is so irritating.
even if i took flexi, i shouldnt have gone out with "them".
wasted again!

2006-11-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

sorry people.
i have been very very lazy about blogging recently.
i really have no idea what am i busy with,
but i just feel busy and time is pressing so tight on me.
and, i have no lastest gossips or any good news for the moment.
so, im going to share some photos with u guys.

firstly, i would like to present a photo of my beloved BD people.

its THEM! i totally love them to bits.
if u realise, there are only 7 of us in the picture.
i only love these SIX darlings in BD.
alrights. i admit for being mean for not loving the other one.

we took these photos for some presentation powerpoint on VM competition.
and i think, we are suppose to look retarded and fierce (cos we are the judges for the VM Competition).
haha! and i have a few NGs.

*Take One*

(wanted to look retarded)

*Take Two*

(trying so hard to look stressful as im suppose to decide on a winner)

*Take Three*

(they think that this turn out nicer compared to the first two)

and these are my sweeties...

estee, serene, joyce and ME!

sorry li qin.
we took these photos without you.
but i still loves you!!!!

i love these girls very very very much.
i cant imagine myself without them during tep.
i will just die without them, really.
they are my sunshine everyday.
they brought to me happiness and happiness.
we talk craps together,
gossips together,
lame together,
go crazy together,
we simply do everything together.
thats BD!
this is our BD Spirit!!!
BD always stand by for each other.
and this is the reason, why all of us loves each other so much.
the thoughts that we are departing one another really kills me.
then now leh, im like attached to MSC Pretty Face for the last few days.
irritating leh! its already like the last few days,
then Chan must seperate us! Grrr...

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Atomic Kitten
-Cradle-

I will rock u like a baby love u cradle in my arms
I will keep u safe from danger shelter u from harm
There will never be another lover treat u like i do
We can drift in 2 forever on a love thats made for 2

(BRIDGE)
dont u ever say this love's not special
dont u ever think its not essential baby

(CHORUS)
I was only thinkin of u hopin u were thinkin of me
Two hearts feeling just like one against the world
Baby I am always dreaming of you hoping you are dreaming of me
I can never live one day without your love

I will kiss you like a angel baby cradle in my wings
I will take you up 2 heaven show you precious things
If you promise that you love me if you promise that you care
I will be here for you always and forever this I swear

(BRIDGE)
dont u ever say this love's not special
dont u ever think its not essential baby

(CHORUS)
I was only thinkin of u hopin u were thinkin of me
Two hearts feeling just like one against the world
Baby I am always dreaming of you hoping you are dreaming of me
I can never live one day without your love

If you say you wanna love but you dont think you believe it
Just open up your heart and you know you will recieve it
ooo ahhhh ooo ahhh

(BRIDGE)
dont u ever say this love's not special
dont u ever think its not essential baby

(CHORUS)
I was only thinkin of u hopin u were thinkin of me
Two hearts feeling just like one against the world
Baby I am always dreaming of you hoping you are dreaming of me
I can never live one day without your love

I was only,i was only,
i was only thinkin of u

i was only,i was only,
i was only thinkin of u

i was only.iwas only,
i was only thinkin of u

i was only,i was only,
i was only thinkin of u

2006-11-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

How much do u love me?

How much do u want me?

How much do u want this relationship?

How much will you cherish me?

and this relationship?

How long must i wait????

i cant wait any longer...

my heart is breaking

and its broken...

Sometimes, i really feel like giving up.

its not as easy as u think.

maybe it will takes a million years for my heart to heal.....

2006-11-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really want to give up.
its so hard, so hard to actually pretend that we are doing fine.
yes. we are happily together but whats the point?
U know what i want, but thats not what u want.
its so difficult. i really dont know what to do.
it just feel as if all my hopes are shattered into pieces.
it really makes me want to give up.
but still, i cant make myself do that.
cos' i know, no matter what,
my heart have already given to you.
its not coming back and will not come back.
all i want is you.
all i need is you.
how i wish u can want me and
need me as much as i do.
if only the day will come...

i definitely need some guidance.
of cos i want to follow my heart,
but it often leads me to broken heart.
joyce asked us to wake up.
i want to wake him up more
than i want to wake myself up.
and Dave asked me not to give up?
guys are weird man.

what should i do?
its driving me crazy.

Have you ever?

2006-11-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

Have You Ever by Brandy

[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever?

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for the words to get to their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

[Chorus]

Have you ever found that one
You've dreamed of all of your life
Not just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

[Chorus]

What I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep

[Chorus]

Pam ever loved somebody so much
It makes her cry
Pam ever needed something so bad
She can't sleep at night
Pam ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Pam ever... yes, she did.

Pam ever been in love
Been in love so bad
She'll do anything to make him understand
She ever had someone steal her heart away
She'll give anything to make him feel the same
She ever searched for the words to get to his heart
But she don't know what to say
And she don't know where to start

Pam ever found that one
She've dreamed of all of her life
Not just about anything
To look into his eyes
She finally found the one she've given her heart to
Only to find that one won't give his heart to her
She ever closed her eyes and
Dreamed that he was there
And all she can do is wait for the day when he will care

" What I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep "

2006-11-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

i fucking swear you are a jerk!
cant you just stop breaking my heart again and again?
im not a puppet of your life.
yes. i love you.
but im not for you to toy with.
all i want is you to love me like how i love you.
why cant u just do it?
im always trying to salvage this relationship
but u are always breaking it.
you made me a fool for you
and u are now leaving me being a fool.

what u really want??
i really want to know...

if only...
if only u said u want me..
if only u ask me to stay and not leave you again...
if only u would say that...

do u still want me?

2006-11-07T17:09:00.000+08:00

omg!!! Joyce is so I.R.R.I.T.A.T.I.N.G!!!

"joyce! can u pls stop screaming?"

she is now blogging and...
she is practically typing every single word i say!!!!!!!!!!!

see! she is now whining big time.....

many many...

2006-11-05T00:25:00.000+08:00

4th Nov.... its my mummy's birthday!
Happy Happy Birthday!!! =)
i bought quite alot of stuff for my mum.
lucky her. received alot of things from me this year.
i bought ANR whitening, pure colour crystal lipstick, cleansing oil.
its all from Estee. and yes, it is her presents!!
or maybe ours? cos i will be using it too. opps.

Went christmas gathering + training today.
so so many never-seen-before faces.
i dont even know their names.
the worst thing is, there is no ice breaking session.
so till now, i still dont get their names.

at certain points, its quite boring.
i was dozing off. trying so hard to look awake.
but i managed to pull it through.
there will be so many new products coming.
so exciting!!!
got to try a few just now.
i love the nutritious facial foam!!!!
definitely getting it man.
everyones is loving it. it smells like lychee too =)

finally, kel bought her camera.
but guess what?
she FORGOT to insert her fully-charged batt into the camera!!
the other time at vivo is that she forgot to bring the whole cam.
now, the battery. -.-"
how blur can she get?
anyway, she kept whinning abt this the whole day.

all of us kept eating and eating non-stop the whole session.
and b'cos of that, i suffered from a super painful stomachache.
luckily, someone in the room has panadol.
if not they will see me rolling on the floor.
at least after taking the panadol, im feeling better.
but that doesnt deter me from eating lesser.
haha! i swear i am a pig la.

the best part of the whole training session is....
i went home with many things :)
first, my group won the second in our quiz.
so everyone is my grp receive this classic clutch from estee.
next, we have this mini lucky draw. (which everyone is entitled to a gift)
the gift is determine by the number that we picked.
and i received a moisturiser!

Day Wear Plus Moisturiser!! exact size somemore. *grins*
and the retail price is $68, i think. =D
just nice, i need a moisturiser. now, i got one!
then, everyone is given a 50ml fragance:
our newest product- Pure while linen.

i love this scent. so pure and luminious.
ahhhh... so happy.
going to share with mummy.
bet she will be very happy too!

then, our training exec said that she will be giving everyone of us
a Hydracomplete moisturiser each. exact size too!
it cost $84 , mind you.
ahhh.. and i chose the gel creme texture.
luckily i will only receive it at the end of this mth.
if not how to use finish?!?!?

and its gift exchange time.
my gift in return is a tea set.
hmmm. not very practical right.
but its still a gift.
so i got to appreciate it :)
but still, i bought such a nice gift leh.
then i got tea set....

before going home, i still take two peppermint x'mas candy!
dont know what it is called la.
eh. neh! those x'mas candies, which is with red and white stripes?
whatever. dont think its helping.

i did get a lot of things, didnt i?
im so so happy =D

p/s: pictures will be updated next time :)

i need you....

i want you......

im missing you...

where are you?

2006-11-03T11:26:00.000+08:00

its friday already. omg. this week just passed like that.
even though the time passes very fast,
and ive been keeping myself very very busy,
u just seems to not go away.
cant you just stop torturing me like this?
im dying soon. really.
its painful!

only god knows how much i want you back,
only god knows how much i misses you,
yes. only he knows.

even so, its not helping anything.
no one can bring us back, except you.
yes you!

do u want me back?

thats an unanswered question.

2006-11-03T11:13:00.000+08:00

"adulterers, take warning, never admit..."
thats why u never admit.

i feel lousy. make me drunk.

2006-11-02T15:25:00.000+08:00

kleaven wong seems to be doing well there.
i mean, thats a good thing.
at least he is having fun and learning something.
the whole new concept is kinda interesting.
hopefully, it will be fun la.

im so busy lately.
BD is currently packed with quite a number of projects,
and i got to cope with my two jobs plus trainings.
for this whole week, my schedule is so packed!!!

monday to friday---> TEP

(after school,)
mon: meet sam,
tue: BD dinner cum farewell to cheng pei,
wed and thurs: training,
friday: working,
sat: estee training and mum's birthday celebration,
sun: woking!!!!!

argh. its quite frustrating actually.
i dont have time for my own pls.
sat is the training and gathering already,
which is literally 1 day more.
and i havent get my exchange gift yet.
but how am i suppose to get one when im so so busy ?!?!?!

2006-10-28T14:25:00.000+08:00

i want to watch princess hours again!!!!

its weird that im chasing korean dramas now,
when i used to hate korean dramas.
princess hours is so sweett!!!
in the same time, hilarious and touching.

quite realistic to a certain extent actually.
sometimes it really do implies on how im feeling and all.
its like a love dictionary to me.
makes me realise alot of things i have in life.

how i wish its me and you in the picture.....

2006-10-28T13:12:00.000+08:00

i was busy doing some quiz from tickle-test for the whole morning.
then, i came across this test called "What's Your Relationship Destiny?",
i do it with any second thoughts.
i didnt regret as im very happy with my results.
here it is...

" Pamela, your relationship destiny is to Find a Fairy Tale Ending"

"Cinderella, Snow White - those ladies knew what they were doing. And like these fairy tale heroines, you're a princess at heart who believes that love really does make the world go round. Of course, you're not waiting to be swept off on someone's white horse - you're a modern gal who's not afraid to do a little rescuing yourself.Independent and confident, you're not about to rely on fate to give you what you want. You've got the drive and spirit to pursue your dreams and find your own destiny. And you're sure to bump into Prince Charming along the way. That's a happy ending!"

isnt it great?

at this moment of time, i really wish for a happy ending.
i really want ours to end like fairy tale.

thats my wish!

2006-10-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

as you know, im now doing TEP in school,
i would like to vent some anger now.
i feel kinda betrayed by some %^&$@*& people
all thanks to these bloody idiot,
my flexi has already deducted 3 hours ++++ !!!
the whole atmosphere is now so awkward.
not point "feng you zhou dao zhe yang"
at least BD stands together!!!
thats good enough

recently, i have been going vivo alot of times.
partly b'cos of the makeover event that im involved in.
i miss my estee lauder girls!!!
we have so so much fun during that 4 days.
spraying my favourite pure white linen perfume,
doing stupid things, having lame jokes,
slack together, chiong sales together...
i miss my seniors too!!
all of us have fun =)
next, some of us will get to meet again!!!
cant wait for x'mas gathering and training.
cos' i heard all of us will be given a 50ml pure white linen.
yayness. i so love pure white linen.

later i will be presenting for sharing session la.
omg!!!! and im so not prepared.
dont even bother to plan my speech.
wish me luck. thank you very much =)

HAPPY Mid-Autumn Festival =)

2006-10-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

happy mid-autumn to all of u!!!
im so happy that the day is finally here.
i love love mid-autumn!!!
cause', mid-autumn is my lunar birthday!!!
yipeee....
eating mooncakes, playing with lanterns and "fire-sticks"
love it <3

im wearing the top dear gave it to me on my bday
so loving it.
but i kinda mis-matched it today.
F***!!! bad dressing day means BAD day!!
i really feel like going home to change it la.
whatever.

its a waste of time

2006-10-06T10:27:00.000+08:00

i shall apologise for not maintaining this lil' blogging space
but i so so busy!!!!!!
currently, im having TEP in school.
for the benefit for ur doubt,
its some attachement in school and they called it TEP
: " training enterprise project"
and for whatever reason, we are asked back to school at the last minute.
im so pissed pls. they only informed us about one week before!!!
and ive already planned my schedule on every minute
now, ive to adjust everything!!!
by right, i should be happily working now,
earning my commision, and whatsoever.
all thanks to my "last-minute" school
our time is NOT at the hands of our school pls
i mean, at least, they should informed us like a month ago or smth
at least we can have our things planned out nicely
asked back to school nevermind,
but im not doing anything at all!!!
my current stopover has not much things to do,
and we dont need to be trained.
but why are we asked back to school???
such a waste of time.
if not, i will be happily earning money now!!!
for these few days,
all we do is EAT and EAT.
save me!!!

owells. shall not complain so much.
cos after 3 weeks, i will be posted to my official stopover
and i might not have this kind of freedom.

fallen into a deep deep hole

2006-09-13T01:08:00.000+08:00

what a fucking lousy day!!!!
DAMN it!

bought a new pair of shoes at a wrong size, (all thanks to my stockings).
for ur bloody information, i wear stockings for work.
and of cos, i must go and exchange for the correct size.
but...i have already threw the receipt away!!!
oh! how dumb can i get??
when i realised i've thrown it away, it is too too late.
so u tell me, how am i suppose to exchange that pair of shoes,
for one of my correct size?
i was pretty pissed already and something worst hit my day.
results is out..... i knew something is not right
and ta-da! im right!!!
i did and really did badly this time round.
but for the worst, i didnt expect it to be that bad.
a flip-flop on my results and gpa. damn the whole thing pls.
alright, i admit i didnt put in alot of effort this time round,
but it doesnt mean i didnt try my best!!!
what the hell is going on?!?!?!

DAMN !

DAMN !

DAMN !

fuck!

2006-09-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

i have such beautiful nails now!!!
baby pink base with lots of shimmering glitters
im so loving it.
unfortunately, i wont be uploading pics of it.
yeah. too too lazy~

me and darling are watching "my lovely samsoon" now!!!
haha. im watching it AGAIN!
have alrdy lost count of the times i watched.
been watching it for many many times,
from day to night.....
and the weird thing is that, im NOT sick of it at all.

better relax to the fullest today.
cause' i will be working FULL shift tmr.
yeah, sunday full shift!!!!
total hell!
what to do? i need $$$ to shop...

so pamela, please dont complain!

2006-09-02T20:57:00.000+08:00

im getting bored of my old layout alrdy.
so, ive decided to change it into a new one =)

2006-08-29T01:31:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS KOREAN DRAMA!!!

"MY LOVELY SAMSOON"; My name is Kim Sam Soon

My favourite korean drama. The BEST drama i have ever watched!!!
please watch it if u have not.
its damn damn NICE!!!
touching and yet hilarious...
Now, i understand why my aunt can watched it for more than 8 times.

Hyun Bin is super charming in this show...
ahhhh... cannot stand it.
haha! my mummy is over the heels for daniel henney.
hmm. i think thats his name.
he is very charming too =D

kudos!!!!

2006-08-29T01:11:00.000+08:00

28.08

monday... the first day of darling's IPP.
sigh. miss him miss him miss him!!!!
his attachment place SOUNDS interesting
but his job scope SUCKS!
i dont understand what has it do with marketing or businesss management!
it is NOT helping us at all!!!
poor boy. he has to work almost everyday pls!!!!
MADNESS!!!
his pay is really really very little...(cheap labour???)
SHEER MADNESS!

anyway, during work today,
I saw PRETTY GIRL!!!!!
(haha! only my close friends know who is pretty girl)
straight after i saw her, i feel so ugly with short hair.
ahhhhhhhh~
my pretty girl has long straight hair =)

2006-08-26T15:47:00.000+08:00

25th August

Its outing day for me and darling boy!
Went tangs, bugis and arab st.
actually intending to go beach road,
but my darling is so tired of walking alrdy.
so we are going there another time.

today was meant for darling to get his stuff.
but in the end....
he went home with nothing.
as for me, im carrying many many paper bags.
and i realised i bought a few redundant earrings.
whatever! this is so called, impulsive buying.

i loved being with my darling.
he is so dearing~ and he never fails to make me smile.
he never fails to make me sad and angry too! haha

he is starting his IPP next monday
and there wont be much time for us to spend time with one another.
moreover, im also working.
it makes things more difficult.

both of us took a few redarded photos while we're on the way home.

i love the way my boy looks here!
isnt he dearing, handsome and charming?
i should have cropped myself away.

here it is:

his back view is as charming!
haha.
im so smitten over him...

since i just cut my hair,
i am a little bit more obsessed with myself than usual.
so i tried to take some picture of myself
but it all turn out bad!

grrr....
please make me MORE photogenic!
thank you very much.

2006-08-26T15:16:00.000+08:00

24th August

thinking thinking and thinking...
should i cut my hair??
looking at the mirror a million times,
asking for advices from mummy, darling and even the hairdresser
sitting at the salon for a hour to make up my mind.

Before:

One hour later

i cut my hair!!!!

i did! i did!

i did cut my hair

and its SHORT!!!!

After:

can u believe it?

i actually cut away those lovely curls.

yes! i cut so much of my hair...

so hows it?

pretty, am i not?

2006-08-23T13:20:00.000+08:00

it have been many donkey years since i last blogged.
im too lazy!!! have been working for the past few days.
boring boring. but what can i do?

how i wish im a super rich girl.....
there is no need to worry about my bank acc balance,
no matter how much i spent.
so i can just spent all my time shopping, hitting on libraries and bookstores, sitting at some garden reading my novel or do some drawing, indulging myself at some expensive restaurant....

how i wish my pay is as much as what my brother is paid.
where do to get a job that can pay me $35/hr
and just promote some toy at toys'r'us??
only my lucky brother can found that lobang.
i know my current job is paying me at an acceptable rate;
good welfare services; nice working environment,
and there is nothing to be choosy about.
but... pam needs more money than that =(
i need $$$$ to SHOP!!!
maybe i should get another job
and cope with two jobs... =)
hah. thats what i always do.

i seriously need to SHOP!!!
i cant remember when is the last time that i shopped.
my desperation for shopping have already reached over the limit;
if u gave me $3000 now, i believe i can spent within 3 hrs...
its not difficult anyway.

2006-08-12T02:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!
and MELVIN!

YAYNESS!!!!

Thank god. Exam is OVER!!!!
the weird thing is that i dont feel very happy at all.
because i still dont get to spend much time with my honey boy.
its his turn to mug for exams now.
how sad!!!

anyway, not in the mood to update much.

-out!-

2006-07-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

22nd July 2006

im spending too much money!
too much!
today i went out with only two item on my shopping list
but i came home with 5 items!
pink coloured ear piece, extension wire,
white denim shorts, tank top and a hoody.
could have spend more,
but all thanks to darling boy.
if not i will be whinning right now
about implusive shopping.

this the pink ear piece i bought.
isnt it nice? im loving it.
thats why i bought extension wire.
hopefully, it will make the ear piece last longer.

the hoody i bought from some shop in bugis.
some ulu brand endorsed by vanness.
it somehow falls under the company as ebase, i think.
i bought it cos' it very comfy
and also the gold printing. =)

i always thought im an extreme shop-acholic.
but i can never beat my brother.
he bought some local designer hoody!
tee shirts... and another bape top.
this time its a bape pullover.
one thing about him is that,
he is certainly brand conscious.
bape!

while walking towards the MRT station just now,
im stopped by my amazingly amazed honey boy.
he wanted a photo of us to be taken
and this is it:

appreciating our elongated shadows.
haha!

while i was getting ready for school on fridat,
i chance upon the nice view outside my window.

the nice horizon of dawn.

2006-07-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

im back to blog
last few days was really hectic.
all the project deadlines. ICAs.
owells. i have one more ica and presentation to go.
i am suppose to be happy for no-more late nights;
rushing of projects and alot more.
but, i will be having my exams in 2 weeks time!
omg. i dont understand a thing for finance n efma!
how am i suppose to get prepared in such a short time?
plus, there are 3 modules for me to memorise.
its wrong to do last minute work and i know
there are just too much work to do and too little time to accomplish.
so, not my fault yeah?
just hope that i can really clear all modules this year.
if i could get at least a 3 for gpa, that would be better.

lets talk about something else.
i realised i have been taking ALOT of photos
and not yet post any of them.

im always scare of CATS!
they are scary animals =X
that time, dee they all came over my hse for project
dee was so fascinated with the persian cat under my block
and so she want to take a pic of the cat.
when she took out her phone, the cat crawl towards her!!!!
so scary. i ran away la
and im this FAR away from her.

i just just dont like cats.
so afraid of them. phobia of cats.
always thought they would bite me or something.

surprising, i have two "cat" friends.
very good friends of mine.

CATherine

cat will just kill me if she find out i showing everyone this pic!
i think she looks nice here, dont u think so?

and zi ting (meow meow)

zi ting is the one on the left.
the ugly one looking $&%# is me. =(

love them loads. okay.
not forgeting the rest.
jo, poh, chew and dee!
theres alot more to name!
i love everyone =)
especially, my darling boy, SAMUEL!

oh ya? did i mention i threw away two of my big big plushie?
not really throw. i recycled them; donated them.
i gave them names.
baby and ning ning

baby accompany me for 4 years already.
my first present from sam.
ahhh. im so sad and i cried!
have to get rid of them cos im allergic.
my nose is giving me alot of problem.
medical fees are piling up.
so i have no choice but to get it of both of them.

Cat helped poh to put mascara last tue;
when we are suppose to study in the library before ICA.
haha. i managed to snap some pictures.

accompanied cat to daiso last friday.
took quite a few weird and crazy pictures.
only managed to snap a few,
cos we were kinda told off by the staff there.
they were so rude! thats why we didnt stay there for long.
anyway, i look ugly in all the photos.
why am i not photogenic?

cat in her princess tiara

my big big red ribbon!
gosh! i look so ugly.

Was asked to make this pose!
suppose to bring out the "aloha" feel
haha! quite a failure, i think
*retarded!

CAT in the hat!
except that the colour of the hat should be white and red.

cat took this for me
when we are eating lunch last friday

nice?????
i find that i look chubby here.

-out-

2006-07-07T00:57:00.000+08:00

why must we submit our MC into the e-services?
so troublesome!
and the e-services is not working on my com.
blame the computer? pls blame on the lousy system.
sick already still must do so much things.
why cant we just submit to our teachers?
hate this. now, got to do all the admin stuff in sch.
b-o-r-i-n-g ! ! !

2006-07-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

im super busy!!!!

busy
busy
busy
busy
.
.
.
.
.
no time to blog
no time to sleep
no time to shop
time is running out!
exams are coming...
omg! just feel like dying

drained

2006-06-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

when he is not around, i feel empty.
everything seems not right.
days pass slower,
sky becomes darker.
he might have put some spell on me,
now, im so hypnotised.
so over the heels.

school is starting TOMORROW!!
(techically, its today. a few more hours to go)
i cant believe that its so so fast.
projects deadlines;
tutorials to do;
study week soon;
and it will be my exams.
how can time passes so fast?

2006-06-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

oh ya!
my dearest honey boy was at my hse the last two nights. =)
im so happy when he stay over.
never want to depart from him.
since he walked into my life,
im not going to let him walk away.

zhanghua got his car license
and i think he is too over excited.
he drove over this morning
just to meet dear for breakfast!!!!
and also, to surprise him with his license.
cos he lied to dear that he failed his test.
klement is having his swimming lesson today.
3.45pm at queenstown swimming complex.
so, he drove the three of us to je mrt station.
wah! i think he still need more practise. being truthful.
its raining when we finish eating lunch.
waited for it to stop and walked all the way to the complex.
when we reached the entrance,
we are stopped by some lifeguard.
telling us that the whole place is booked for some carnival
and all activities are cancelled. (klement is still praying that the lesson
will be cancelled as it was raining. yeah. wish granted)
seriously think that the lesson today is meant to be cancelled.
because the lesson should be at some sport complex near
tanglin area; botanic garden and orchard.
somewhere in between?
then, they have some carnival today.
thats why the venue has been changed to queentown. or it is queensway?
and haha, they have some carnival too!
cant blame anyone. uncle thomas dont know about the carnival either.
(uncle thomas gives me and kleaven swimming lessons when we are young.
and now, he is giving swimming elsson to klement.)
he earned big bucks by giving lessons. really $$$$!

dad fetches us home after that.
feel safer in dad's car. haha!
just now, zhanghua came over again!!!
just to fetch dear home. -.-"
i think they went for supper.
haha! how i wish im able to bring my dearest bestie, weiting,
and dear's bestie, zhang hua, together.
okay. im thinking too much.

being random

ben n jerry's have this new icecream on stick thing.
i ate it just now. CHERRY GARCIA!
yummy yummy! i wanna eat it again.
and also the MAGIC BROWNIES.
i love icecream
its fattening. and it really makes me fat.
but cant i resist icecream man?
if u dont eat icecream,
i feel wasted for you.

maybe i should really start working out.
shed a few pounds off me,
tone my figure.
i want a 24" waist!
not asking much, am i?

2006-06-24T12:00:00.000+08:00

23th june, friday

i tell you. this can be my worst day ever.
why? oh let me tell you why.

1. i forgot to zip my pants when im out of the hse. (luckily, it wasnt too late to realise it)

2. when im on the bus, i can feel that my menses is back. (it just finish two days ago)

3. i did not bring extra pad. (one is not enough for me to last the whole day.)

4. my phone died on me for the whole day; since early in the morning.
obviously, i didnt charged the night before.

5. when i realise that my phone is on low batt, i was alrdy out of the hse.
and so, i did not bring any charger out.

which it also means that i have to survive the whole day without a phone!!!
it will be better if sam have a phone, but he just lost his phone recently.
both of us are beyond reach yesterday.
luckily, he went school with me. so, it'll not that bad after all.
i had my project meeting and he prefer to stay out of the way.
so, we went seperate ways.
gave dee's number to him in case he need to contact me.
at around 3.30pm, both of us need to leave school for work
and he havent call dee's phone.
the worst thing is, dee's phone is going to die soon.
as i know sam will be with his friend, px, i thought i could contact him through px.
luckily, px, me, sam and dee happen to work at the same place
and we know px's friend.
asked our friend, wei qi, for px's number.
oh... i tell you, i tell you..
it is the worst scenario you can think of.
px dont own a phone!!!
so the situation is that:
-my phone died.
-sam lost his phone.
-dee's phone is dying.
-px dont own a phone.

and how am i going to contact him?!?!?!

there is no choice.
and i have to search for him around the whole school.
i went all the possible places that he could be and there is no sign of him.
some people would say that maybe i missed him out or whatever.
hey! he is wearing a green shirt and how difficult can it get to spot him?
so, i went all the way to the south canteen!!! (all the way from north canteen!)
it is freaking FAR!!! which is also the last thing i want to do.
from far, i spot a green figure happily sitting down laughing.
whatever.

on the way to work, there is this lady
will a BIG bush of pony tail hanging at the back of her head.
it is not any smaller than a small bouquet of flowers.
she brushed that bush of hers along my shouders
when she is trying to sit down beside me.
ewww.... the bush is filled with dry tangled hair.
and u never know what is inside.
there might be some insects trapped inside
and is trying to figure the way out.
so when she brush her hair on my shoulders,
i freaked out.
cos they might be something landing on my shoulders which i dont know.
yucks*
okay. we are LATE for work.
i really dont know who should i thank for that.

work is totally BUSY today.
the queue is never-ending please.
slogged all the way to closing.
the icecream shop beside is having a 50% off after 8.30pm
and some of us stood punctually at the counter.
ordered dark chocolate and rasberry.
two flavours for ONLY $2!!!!!
those who bought their share are happily eating in the kitchen
and me? busy working!!!!
most are drink orders.
so, dear, uncle xu and i are so busy at the counter.
in one shot, 4 double vanilla blended and dont know how many floats.
hell pls. almost died!
i dont even have time to eat my icecream,
and do some other stuff.
NO TIME!!!!
only when closing the shop, then i started doing
those folding and topping up.
some people are just so fucking irritating.
while im counting the money,
she was like "HUH? u havent clean ur counter ah?"
hey! are you coming to show off or what?
u are a pain in my ass, im telling you.
u even have the time to eat your icecream SLOWLY!
eating it, enjoying it, and talking inside the kitchen!
and i fucking dont have the time!
so who are you to inspect what am i doing?
im sure i do a so much better job than you.
and you jolly well shut the hell up and get lost.
when i am STILL cleaning up my place,
she punched timeout for all our cards, including mine.
cant u see im still cleaning? damn it!
I hate this. i hate it when im still working
and those idiots, who have alrdy finish their cleaning,
punched timeout for all of us.
yes! and i did give her a piece of my mind.
this is not the fucking first time.
that is why i always try to finish my closing before those people.

2006-06-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

honey boy is having his first bike practical today.
technically, it should be the first lesson.
but i heard that he will be graded
and also most people failed the first test.
hmm.. maybe it is the first test?
whatever. i dont know.
im always very against the idea of taking a bike lincense.
now, still very against it.
but what to do? he wanted it so much.
end up we will just be quarrelling.
so, i gave up! and just let him learn it.
anyway, hope that he will be able to pass the first test.

will be meeting him after his lesson.
and then, off to work.
time passes so fast pls.
its thursday already.
supposedly, we are to hand in our project
on next monday(the first day of schoool).
which i havent touch it at all.
i will still need to wait till everything is done,
then i can do my part.
lets hope it wont be a screwed up one.

2006-06-21T11:04:00.000+08:00

still feeling sick and it sucks.
school is reopening in another 4 days!!!
oh my goodness. i cant believe it.
i havent even enjoy or even relax for the whole two weeks break
and it is going to end already.
have been working for most of the days.
i am SUPER broke and that is why i need to work.
kept telling myself that i cant shop anymore,
but it is not helping much.
shopping? how can i resist it? haha!

i shop for my life please.
last week, cat and i are meeting our group for project at one.
and we met for shopping before that.
haha. and it is like early in the morning;
when most of the shops are still closed.
actually the main reason for the shopping is to get
my polkadots hairband.
unfortunately, it is SOLD OUT!!!!
super angry la! we went all the way for it
and it is sold out. whatever!!!!
in the end, we went livia
and both of us bought quite a number of stuff.
instead of getting the hairband i wanted,
i end up buying alot of polkadots accessories.
did i say both of us are librans?? haha!
so coincidental right?
and i tell you,
both of us have so much in common;
like, we are always late for anything. late queens.
and yeah. we are late for the project meeting. =S
always thought that i am the weirdest girl on earth,
but now i am not. i've found catherine. =)
she is as weird as me. haha!

i am so pms-ing for the past few days!
especially when i am working.
already so pms-ing, and those irritating customers worsen it!
super super irritating customers.
every single thing can make me irritated.
and that makes me do the weirdest things on earth.
when i am feeling bad, i will drink coke.
for whatever reason, it actually makes me feel better.
after drinking coke on friday,
surprising, i am a happy girl already.
all i can say, is WEIRD; severe moodswings.

saturday, 17th june
its my cousin's second big day.
we will be going for his wedding lunch at Marriot.
woah. i tell you, the bedroom toilet is..... beyond words.
everywhere i go, there is a mirror. haha!
full length mirror!!!!! it is enough to fit three person.
i want that in my room!!!

i am suppose to be the receptionist? (whatever you call it)
okay. the girl who asked people to sign
and give them their table number.
have i stolen the limelight from the groom and bride?
the photographer keep taking pictures of me instead of them. haha!
eh hey! not being egoistic here okay.
the photographer insisted and there is nothing much i can do.
u cant expect me to look grumpy cos the photo wont turn out nice!!!

i always dont have a liking for sharkfin soup
but the one i ate at his wedding lunch is great.
the sharkfins are in chunks and i seriously mean chunks.
big big chunks.
i dont remember eating any sharkfin soup
during wedding events that is in chunks.
the most it is in shreds, isnt it?

monday, 19th june
had project meeting again!!!! -.-
it is suppose to be my term break
and i hope it will be school-free.
as i dont live beside my school.
but still, i am going school almost everyday for projects.
what to do? i've got like 4-5 projects on hand.
hate it! this is hell.
after that, im going for my dental appointment
for scaling and polishing.
i went in for 10 minutes. (or it is 15 mins?)
fast right? all i know is that the dentist did not do much.
he just clear the dirt in between my teeth;
hurt my gum and caused it to bleed!!!!
the after-taste is horrible! all i can taste is my blood.
and i paid $52 for that appointment!
it included consultation, and i dont remember the dentist telling me anything!!!
damn! and i am paying for the consultation?!?!?!

i am craving for anderson's ice-cream!!

2006-06-20T14:32:00.000+08:00

i swear this is going to jeopardise this relationship.

you are such a b****** la!!!!
can you put more effort into this relationship of ours?
can u at least live for me?
do u love me as much?

actually i doubt so.

2006-06-20T14:21:00.000+08:00

i just hope that you can be more sensitive!!!!

2006-06-20T14:06:00.000+08:00

im super affected by the words he said.
i mean SUPER. very indeed.
maybe bcos im a libran,
and i care alot about how other people think of me.
compliments or insults rule my day.
cant i just feel sad and tear?
is that wrong? or it a crime to him?
im a girl. an emotional one.
i tear like anyone.
okay. maybe super emotional.
but still, i dont think its wrong.
i wanna know how you feel,
and i didnt blame you for speaking out.
but i am just affected by it.
i just want to be a as pretty as the other girls.
at least im not sloppy dressed!!!

am i that bad?
do i look that bad?
have i lost the attraction to attract you?

I JUST WANT TO BE ATTRACTIVE!!!

2006-06-19T01:29:00.000+08:00

i got tonnes to blog about.
wait till im feeling better.
stay tune for more!

haha! whatever man.

2006-06-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

Sunday, 18th June

IM SICK!!!!!!!!!!

AGAIN!!!!

down with a cold.
my immunity system is killing me
and yes, it will kill me!
two weeks back,
i just had my fever.
now, a cold!
dad is blaming on my soft toys.
people who have visited my house,
should know how big those two plushies are.
daddy thinks those plushies are filthy
and they are the cause of my weak immunity.
owells. i just cant bring myself to throw them away.
especially the mashi maro.
its the first birthday gift from honey boy
and it is 3 and a half years old already.
hope it is a good reason for the tremendous
change of its colour. HAHA

anyway, HAPPY FATHERS DAY!
brought a BRAUN BUFFEL key holder pouch for dad.
i think he loves it.
luckily he told mum he needs a key holder,
if not me and kleaven will be at wits end.
also, we had breadtalk's cake.
klement's presnt is the MOST funniest and weirdest
present i ever seen. haha

2006-06-15T10:21:00.000+08:00

i'm so angry now.
i left the computer without saving my entry
and my dad INTRUDED the computer.
i dont mind him using but....
he CLOSED the whole blogger window!!!
so i've to retype everything all over again.
he blamed me for not saving it
and i took the blame cos its my fault for not saving it.
but still, he cant closed the page like that right. =S
forget it.
no point whinning now.

its shitty.
went jogging this morning and its horrible.
had my cramps half way through. DAMN!
super unlucky.
it just happen that every time around
the period of the month, i will be running.
and without fail, i will be suffering from the horrible cramps.
for my case, it is not only cramps.
i will be having nausea, blur vision and dizziness.
when i was walking home from the park,
it feels like a 100 miles.
no matter how far i have walked, it is not reaching.
while walking home, i saw mum and dad.
was asked to join them for breakfast,
but i cant take it, i need to go home immediately.
too giddy to stand still.
the moment i stepped inside my house,
i collapsed.

last time whenever we are training or running for 2.4km run,
i will be having my cramps.
and without fail,
im always sent to the sick bay.

theres this new limited edition pepsi;
Pepsi Gold.
kleaven bought and so ive a taste of it.
YUCKS. its taste gross.
i dont like it.
dont know why klement love it so much.
WEIRD!

2006-06-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

remember the pearl pearl handphone accessory i bought?
this is it!!!

isnt it lovely? =)

11th june, sunday
honey boy and i decided to cook our dinner
so we went supermarket for shopping!
got craving for japanese curry
and i decided to cook japanese curry for dinner.
first time cooking it and it turned out well!
everyone said that it nice!! hee~
actually it very easy to cook.
before i add the curry chunks,
it taste good already.
honey boy still asked if we can just eat without adding the curry chunks.
haha! but i got craving so i dont care.]
i think i can really cook! cook real well!!
100% good housewife. haha!
i mean there isnt many people at our age who can cook well. am i wrong?
hmm. i just happen to belong to the category who can cook well la. =D

Japanese Curry Rice

12th June, monday
today's dinner is much more simple;
FRIED RICE!!!

simple but nice!!!!

Im just good at cooking!
believe it or not.

2006-06-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

Yippee! I'm back!
last few days was hectic pls.
so many many many projects to submit.
there is definately a number of things to be blog about.
and here i goes...

3rd june
went to MOD's flea market with cat
cat bought 3 pairs of earrings and i bought 2 pairs.
this is the two pairs of earrings i bought!
arent they lovely????

(both pictures are taken from http://mod-vibe.blogspot.com)

wanted to get the pink lego ear studs so much. but....
it is RESERVED!!!!
how can they display it when it was already reserved?
kinda disappointed! cos i love it so much and i cant get it.
yup! this is the pink lego ear studs im talking about.
nice right????

(picture is taken from http://mod-vibe.blogspot.com)

before the trip there, we made a promise to control each other's spending.
but in the end, we bought alot of stuff.
whats new?!?!? HAHA

6th june

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI TING!!!!

06.06.06, its looks kinda creepy to me.
yeah. know what i mean right?
but it is still a special day, i suppose.

didnt manage to meet my dear wei ting.
wanted to celebrate her birthday
but this lady here is a busy girl.
i still love her as much.

i wore my new earrings!
and so....
i look photos of myself again!
haha.

oh ya.
did i say i saw someone wearing the same hair band that i have???
=( anyway, i bought a new hair band!
haha!

7th june
i always shopped before work.
becos' there so much time and i've nth to do
i rather do something else!
it is because i always ended up buying something.
that explains why i'm always monetary drained.
actually, i enjoys shopping alone.
theres no restrictions; i go where i want to.
but being a libran, im very indecisive.
i cant decide on my own.
which is why i always buy things without thinking,
and often ended up buying things that i either dont need or dont like.
this time round, i went ZARA again.
bought a basic tee
and many pics of myself taken.
i spent quite alot of time in the changing room.
haha! let me show u why.

this is the top i bought. nice yeah?
it is the print of yellow and white stripes.
i love the pair of shorts!!!!
but im still considering whether should i get it or not. =(

8th june
no school! all elearning!
but still, i went school to settle all the projects submission.
met wei ting after that and
had pizza hut for lunch.
both of us haven eaten anything since morning
and at least im starving.]
wanted to try something new and
i had BBQ chicken supreme pizza.
nice leh. yummy!
wei ting has her sausage mania pasta.
i have not meet her for so long la.
miss her like anything
she have somehow changed a little.
i still love her as much
and will support her in any way.

today! 10th june
finally, i bought my new handphone accessory.
its a pearl pearl handphone charm. =)
im loving it. so nice~
im a happy girl.
theres no doubt that i am easily contented.
had dinner at home today.
i cooked healthy healthy pasta for me n honey boy.
alot alot of blanched broccoli;
only virgin olive oil used;
and lean chicken breast meat =)
with apples for dessert.
proper meal!
theres carbohydrates, dietary fibre, lots of proteins and vitamins.
for what i know, theres vitamin A, K, B2, B3, B6, B12, C and folate.

HAHAHAHAHA.....

2006-06-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

i eat like pig
and i graze like a cow.
okay. worst than that.
worst than animals.
so, what am i?

kill me,
slap me!

thank you very much.

2006-06-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

i'm so FAT,
so UGLY,
so UNGLAM.

fat like anything.
ugly like anything.
unglam like anything.

call me a monster,
call me a pig.
anything!
cos i'm no more a pretty lady called pam.

spare me a chopper,
to chop off my fats.
spare me a grinder,
for me to grind all my cellulite.
spare me a mirror,
to look at the creature reflected.

when can i wear sexy and skimpy clothes?
when i can ever look slim?
when can i ever fit into XS sizes?

there gone my confidence,
my ego.
no longer narcissistic!!!!

2006-05-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

I loathe going to JP during weekends. Especially those open-aired places outside the MRT station. Nightfall is spooky enough and those places are darker than ever; totally pitch-dark. It may look like a backdrop of starry sky, but theres ALOT of difference. At least starry sky is something everyone wish to behold.

2006-05-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

At last, its Saturday!
Last few days were hectic.
Still, I have thousands of projects to submit,
and hundreds of tests.

Im not feeling a hundred percent.
Down with a fever during my weekends!!!!
Its so irritating.
but i feel slimer! haha

I went school early yesterday to study for my biz finance test later.
I kept sneezing non-stop.
For a short 30 mins, I used two packets of tissue paper.
Lazy and too busy to move,
So Ive asked my dear Samuel to get me some tissue papers.
Haha! Guess what.
He came with a whole big packet of tissue papers!!
I was touched la, of course.
Nevertheless, Im a little paiseh.

How I wish Im able to score distinctions for this semester.
After taking my EFMA and Biz finance,
I knew the hopes scattered.
Hoping for the better.

My boy and I have watched Da Vinci Code together with Dee and Gerv.
There has been quite a debate of -Bible vs. Da Vinci Code-.
Whos right and whos wrong?
It depends on individuals to interpret, I think.
The movie is nice though.
However, it might not fit the taste of everyone.
There are some people who left the show after 20 mins.
Hmmm... They dont seem to know how to appreciate the show.
Im a truth seeker and very interested in history.
Ironically, I always failed my humanities last time.
Haha! Lets not talk about it man.

Dad just bought a new pair of Dr. Martens shoe!!
Its so so nice!!!
He is so hip to wear Dr. Martens.
Haha!

2006-05-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

im lazy to blog.
and so im just going to post some pics.

some random pic

We've some NE seminar to attend last wed
and it was super boring.
all of us arent paying any attention;
busy reading magazines and doing tutorials.
and nonetheless, we took quite a number of photos.

haha! look whos behind us.

chew is behind her magazine,
dee is busy blowing her nose,
poh is reading her magazine,
spastic wei da,
and alex surrendered to the camera.
LOL!

my free door gift. haha! dog biting its bone.

thats dee!

whos that guy? extra!!!

i look retarded

that me and dee at our workplace's kitchen.
both of us were preparing the waffle!
it very NICE and ADDICTIVE.
try it! No regrets.
100% satisfaction.